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When I say I don't remember that day,
I'm not Iying.
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I wish I did, but I just don't.
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It's funny, the stuff that sticks in your head.
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Stuff you don't think one bit important,
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not even when it's right there happening.
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Sometimes that's the stuff that sticks.
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Sometimes the most important stuff Goes away.
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It goes away so bad,
it's Iike it was never there to begin with.
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I can't remember that day.
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But I couId teII you forward and backward
about some day when I was five
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and my dad bought me a stupid ice-cream cone.
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I couId teII you the fIavour of the ice cream...
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It was...pink bubbIe gum.
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..and even stuff
about the girl who scooped it out.
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Her hair was fire red,
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red Iike I'd never seen before.
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AII that stuff is there
Iike it was happeninG riGht now, but...
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I don't remember that day.
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At Ieast, not the stuff that they want me to.
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I remember it was
the first reaIIy hot day of spring.
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I rememBer how the sun feIt
on the back of my neck.
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That's about it.
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Here 's another one of those things that sticks.
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This one is something
a friend of mine said to me.
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"You have to beIieve that Iife is more
than the sum of its parts, kiddo. "
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I remember it right down to that "kiddo " part.
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But when I think about what she said,
the same thing aIways comes into my head...
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What if you can't put the pieces together
in the first pIace?
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? And this I know, his teeth as white as snow
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? What a gas it was to see him
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? Walk her every day
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? lnto a shady place
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? With lips, she said...
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Erm...
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Just hold on one sec.
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? Hey, Paul, hey, Paul, hey, Paul
Let's have a ball...
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- Come in.
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How are you, Beck?
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Good.
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Yeah, you know, I'm pretty good.
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- I'm good. Daddy, how are you?
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Where's Ryan?
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I was telling her the same thing five minutes ago,
Mrs Pollard.
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I swear, it's like she doesn't wanna listen to us.
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I just don't think I sounded
as good as the other girls.
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Particularly Kate. I mean, Kate's the real singer.
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I think it's a good experience for you.
You've never done one of the musicals.
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Yeah, well, this is the first and the last.
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I mean, it's so awkward. You're sitting there
eating soup and, aII of a sudden,
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it's, like, time to sing.
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? I'm eating soup
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? Soup, soupy soup
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You're supposed to make it sound all natural.
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I love your voice.
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You'd say that if I sounded like
a harpy with throat cancer.
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- You think it's bad?
- No.
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Of course not.
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? Stuck here out of gas
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? Out here on the Gaza Strip...
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Damn.
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JuIie PoIIard, Tim WaIIace from the Drama
Department at Iowa. Just checking up on you.
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Wondered if we can expect to see you in the faII.
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Give me a caII here at the office.
I 'II be in tomorrow.
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You should call him,
let him know you settled on ASU.
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- You did send your confirmation?
- I think I still have a few days.
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Oh, Mom, the shop called.
They say you can pick up your car.
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- What's the damage?
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- They didn't say on the machine.
- Oh, that's a great sign!
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Hello?
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Slow down, Harry, I can't understand you.
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What?
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What happened?
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No, I'll... I'll be right there.
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Lee?
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Lee?
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Hi, Mommy.
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Are you aII right?
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Er...
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I think I made a mistake.
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I can't imagine too many detaiIs
have been reIeased...
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..suspect's here. Do they have any Ieads?
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- Yeah?
- Are you watching the news, chief?
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Er, yeah, you know I gotta stay
on top of the topical shit.
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The TV boys say the suspect is 1 6, some SFK.
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Ten bucks says the SFK in question
winds up in your cIass tomorrow.
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- Why would he be Special Handling?
- You can get by with a Iot of shit in this world
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but you can't stab a retarded kid 20 times
and not be speciaI HandIing.
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20 times?
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It wouId be OK if it were onIy 1 9?
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SFK. chief.
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Sick Fucking Kid.
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Do you get music on that?
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What?
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Do you have a normal radio in here for music?
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I was just thinking that when you're parked
somewhere waiting for a guy to speed,
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you'd want some music to help pass the time.
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He didn't do this.
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I only need to see him for a minute.
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Please.
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Visiting days are every second Sunday
ofthe month. noon to four.
,
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Please, please...
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One minute.
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Just one minute, please.
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Please, sir, one minute.
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Right, there's nothing I can do,
so I need you to turn around.
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..apprehended the aIIeged suspect
at an area hospitaI earIier this evening.
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LeIand! LeIand FitzgeraId! LeIand!
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Did you do it?
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Do you have anything to say?
Why did you do it, Leland?
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Because of the sadness.
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What sadness?
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Whose sadness?
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Your sadness.
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We 'II be riGht back.
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The Jiffy Lube signature service oiI change...
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Show me hands.
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Step.
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GentIemen. Iet's waIk.
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- Briefcase?
- Briefcase.
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Hi. Good morning.
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I was wondering if I could borrow a stamp?
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Let me see.
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Erm...
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I'm kinda new here,
so I'm not really sure where they keep stuff.
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I blanked on a phone bill. I'm gonna be
in debtor's prison if I don't get it in the mail.
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Getthe biIIs. I understand.
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Here we are.
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Thanks.
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Oh, by the way, I'm Pearl.
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Tomorrow's a formality.
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The judge will glance at your file
and send you back here.
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After that comes the fitness hearing...
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..and then the adjudication.
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Work with me, Lee. They're gonna charge you
with first-degree murder.
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If you get shipped off to aduIt court with that,
you're Iooking at the death penaIty.
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Or, if you're lucky, life.
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Do you have any concept of what life means?
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I'm not an idiot, Charlie. It means life in prison.
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- Good morning.
- Hey.
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What did I tell you, chief?
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Newest addition to SH and your very own
pop sheet, Mr Leland P Fitzgerald,
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killer of retarded kids.
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Kid.
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Ben, retarded kid, singular.
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You'll never guess who his daddy is.
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I'll put 50 bucks on Satan.
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Albert Fitzgerald.
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- No shit?
- Hey, I was cIose.
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- What's wrong with Fitzgerald?
- Let me see...
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He's a drunk, a misogynist...
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- Cat can write.
- He's despicable.
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Despicable? He's a bastard. So what?
You don't judge a writer by his life.
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You judge him by his work.
A different moral standard going on here.
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Excuse me, ma'am.
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Could I look at your paper?
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Oh, yes, certainly, erm...
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Business or Life?
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Oh, no, I'll wait for the front page, thank you.
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Excuse me.
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I'm sorry if I'm bothering you, but...
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aren't you an actor?
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- Aren't we all, dear?
- No, no.
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I mean, a famous actor.
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You know, a movie star actor.
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I know your face.
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I was in Stanley Kubrick's musical,
the one about the alcoholic pirates.
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I played Captain Morgan.
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Whenever you're done with the front page, dear.
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How about hooking us up with a table
right by the kitchen, dog?
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What you in for, dog?
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Hey, I'm not asking you cos I'm gonna
kick your ass if you did some fucked-up shit,
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cos I already know you did some fucked-up shit.
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Hey, a guy like me,
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you know he's an SH cos he ratted out
some bitch from State Street.
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Now half the pop wants to stick
a fucking pencil to his eye.
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Hey, but white boys ain't about
that gang shit though, huh?
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Especially not white boys like you
who don't look like no Slim Shady.
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White boys like you the ones
who did some fucked-up shit, huh?
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That's cool, dog.
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OK, everybody, take your seats, please.
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You'll have to forgive Mr Madison today.
He's moving kinda slow.
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- His head's beating like it's the end of the world.
- You been drinking that cheap ass burgundy.
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- No comment.
- That stuff'll make you go blind, sir.
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Hey, three bucks, two Iitres.
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I couldn't pass it up.
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You, sir, are new to my class.
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- What's your name?
- Fitzgerald. Leland P Fitzgerald.
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Well, Mr Leland P Fitzgerald,
my name is Pearl Madison.
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And I'm gonna be your history teacher,
your science teacher, your math teacher,
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your anything else teacher all rolled into one
for however long you'll be here with us.
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Hey, PearIy,
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when are you bringing
your dancer up here, dog?
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As soon as the lovely Miranda returns from LA,
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I'm sure she would be delighted
to meet you hoodlums.
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Liar.
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Hey, Mrs Pollard.
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- Have you been up all night?
- Yes, I suppose I have.
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Need a light there?
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I...don't feel so bad.
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I thought you quit, too.
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How could he have been
that much to someone?
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How could he mean enough
for that boy to hurt him?
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He was barely there.
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Mrs Pollard, I really don't know what to say.
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Um...
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But I just want you to know
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that if there's anything that I can do,
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just tell me.
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It's all right, sweetheart.
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And as you Iook out over Venice today,
you see the city...
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- Hey.
- Hey, in Venice, there's no streets, right?
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There 's just rivers and shit?
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Er, canals and shit, yeah.
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They don't even allow cars on the island.
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You can hear footsteps.
- What's that?
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Since they don't allow cars, when you're walking
around, all you can hear is footsteps.
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Pearly, help me out here, bro.
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I'm developing this theory, right,
that the suicide rate ofVenice is real low.
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Cos if you jump off a building, all your ass is
gonna do is splash in a canal and shit, right?
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OK, well, why don't we expand
on that theory tomorrow?
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Class dismissed, you guys.
Go ahead and bring your books up to the front.
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Hey, where were you, B?
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I was kinda wondering...
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Maybe I could keep this
and do some writing in my room?
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Unfortunately, I can't allow you
to take anything out.
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But I'll keep it up here safe for you.
227
00:20:19,135 --> 00:20:21,679
Hey, um...I'm jealous.
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00:20:21,762 --> 00:20:25,514
- When did you go to ltaly?
- My dad lives in Paris.
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So sometimes, we traveI together.
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I guess I'll see you tomorrow.
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You're the one that killed that retarded kid, huh?
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Was it some kind of devil worship thing?
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What did you do to your hand?
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I stabbed myself.
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00:21:16,685 --> 00:21:20,396
If you're going for suicide,
I'd say try the stomach or somethin'.
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I just wanted to know what it felt like.
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I bet it hurt.
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Should've just asked me, devil boy,
I would have saved you some trouble.
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The journal goes down the front of your pants,
the pencil goes in your sock.
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Thanks.
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00:22:20,280 --> 00:22:22,364
I'm just glad to see somebody's writing.
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Er, Pearl? Can I ask you a question?
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It's about your name.
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You're wondering, why Pearl?
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00:22:40,339 --> 00:22:42,382
- You like basketball?
- Sure.
246
00:22:43,258 --> 00:22:46,177
Well, in the '70s, there was this guy
who played for the Knicks.
247
00:22:46,260 --> 00:22:48,804
His name was Earl Monroe.
His nickname was The Pearl.
248
00:22:48,888 --> 00:22:51,348
- Earl the Pearl?
- Earl the Pearl, right.
249
00:22:51,431 --> 00:22:54,142
Well, my parents were in Queens then.
250
00:22:54,266 --> 00:22:56,312
My mom was a dancer. She hated sports.
251
00:22:56,437 --> 00:23:00,189
But somehow my dad talked her into going
to check out a game at the Garden.
252
00:23:00,314 --> 00:23:05,109
It just turns out that it's Earl the Pearl's night.
Cat went off, dropped 33 points on the Celtics.
253
00:23:05,193 --> 00:23:08,822
After the game, all my mom could do
was talk about how watching him play
254
00:23:08,905 --> 00:23:12,324
was like watching a dance recital,
because he moved like poetry...
255
00:23:12,407 --> 00:23:15,493
Hey! Hey! Break it up!
- Outta my way, man!
256
00:23:19,789 --> 00:23:21,750
Anyway, when I was a kid,
257
00:23:21,876 --> 00:23:23,960
that was pretty much all the story I got.
258
00:23:24,043 --> 00:23:27,588
But a couple of Christmases ago,
I'm knocking a few back with my dad.
259
00:23:27,671 --> 00:23:29,339
And he embellishes.
260
00:23:29,423 --> 00:23:32,300
He said, after the game,
they went back to Queens.
261
00:23:32,383 --> 00:23:35,469
Well, thankfully,
my dad spared me the details here.
262
00:23:35,552 --> 00:23:38,012
But um...the condom broke.
263
00:23:38,095 --> 00:23:40,431
And nine months later, whoops.
264
00:23:40,514 --> 00:23:42,765
- Here comes Pearl.
- Here comes Pearl.
265
00:23:45,061 --> 00:23:47,063
Trust me, the sock.
266
00:23:53,610 --> 00:23:55,570
I know what they want from me.
267
00:23:56,654 --> 00:23:58,363
They want a why.
268
00:23:58,488 --> 00:24:03,158
They want a reason, something to tie up
with a IittIe Bow and bury in the back yard.
269
00:24:04,285 --> 00:24:07,079
Bury it down so deep, it's Iike it never happened.
270
00:24:08,957 --> 00:24:11,000
They want me to say how I'm so sorry
271
00:24:11,083 --> 00:24:13,127
and it was my mom's fauIt
272
00:24:13,210 --> 00:24:15,255
or maybe it was my dad's fauIt,
273
00:24:15,337 --> 00:24:18,840
or it happened because of TV or movies or...
274
00:24:18,965 --> 00:24:21,007
some junk Iike that.
275
00:24:21,091 --> 00:24:24,094
Or maybe I bIame some girI.
276
00:24:25,178 --> 00:24:27,347
Not even when you were a IittIe kid?
277
00:24:27,430 --> 00:24:30,474
You never thought about
whether there was angels or not?
278
00:24:32,017 --> 00:24:34,395
Maybe when I was a little kid.
279
00:24:34,478 --> 00:24:37,982
My grandmother died when I was real little.
280
00:24:38,149 --> 00:24:40,108
And after that, every time...
281
00:24:40,233 --> 00:24:43,985
I stole candy or fought with my mom or...
282
00:24:46,822 --> 00:24:48,822
..played with myself or something,
283
00:24:49,907 --> 00:24:51,700
I'd get this real bad feeling.
284
00:24:51,784 --> 00:24:56,037
I'd picture her from up high with this big frown
on her face, looking down on me.
285
00:24:58,540 --> 00:25:00,501
I don't think that they frown on us.
286
00:25:00,626 --> 00:25:02,127
I think that...
287
00:25:02,211 --> 00:25:04,253
they look after us.
288
00:25:04,337 --> 00:25:06,964
You know, like guardian angels.
289
00:25:08,757 --> 00:25:10,801
They take care of us, make sure...
290
00:25:11,885 --> 00:25:15,471
..make sure nothing bad happens,
make sure everything's OK.
291
00:25:19,933 --> 00:25:22,895
Well, how come everything's not OK
most of the time?
292
00:25:26,398 --> 00:25:28,441
Well, maybe they're lazy.
293
00:25:30,652 --> 00:25:31,985
What?
294
00:25:32,110 --> 00:25:34,905
No, it's just kind of funny, lazy angels.
295
00:25:37,740 --> 00:25:42,619
It makes me think of these big, fat guys
with wings, drinking beer and playing darts.
296
00:25:51,961 --> 00:25:54,130
I want you to be my guardian angel, Lee.
297
00:25:56,590 --> 00:25:58,634
I want you to float over me,
298
00:25:58,717 --> 00:26:00,760
make sure that...
299
00:26:01,886 --> 00:26:04,012
..everything's gonna be OK.
300
00:26:06,181 --> 00:26:08,224
Your hair smells like...
301
00:26:08,308 --> 00:26:10,350
strawberries.
302
00:26:11,395 --> 00:26:13,855
It's my shampoo, dodo, it's not my hair.
303
00:26:15,940 --> 00:26:17,900
- Well, I still like it.
- Look at me.
304
00:26:18,025 --> 00:26:20,068
I'm serious, OK?
305
00:26:21,278 --> 00:26:24,238
I want you to say
that you're always gonna be there.
306
00:26:25,364 --> 00:26:27,407
Sometimes I'm somewhere else.
307
00:26:30,159 --> 00:26:32,120
Just tell me that everything's...
308
00:26:32,245 --> 00:26:34,288
gonna be OK.
309
00:26:36,542 --> 00:26:39,335
Well, I can't really make sure everything's OK.
310
00:26:42,087 --> 00:26:44,005
I know, but...
311
00:26:44,089 --> 00:26:46,424
Sometimes you say things that aren't...
312
00:26:46,507 --> 00:26:48,300
totally true.
313
00:26:48,425 --> 00:26:50,469
But you say them anyways because...
314
00:26:51,553 --> 00:26:55,473
..you want it to be true, you know, maybe...
maybe that's good enough.
315
00:26:58,183 --> 00:26:59,601
Just...
316
00:27:00,728 --> 00:27:03,022
Just tell me everything's gonna be OK.
317
00:27:04,816 --> 00:27:07,484
Why don't you whisper it in my ear, soft?
318
00:27:16,616 --> 00:27:18,659
Everything's gonna be OK.
319
00:27:58,985 --> 00:28:01,113
Yeah, weII...
320
00:28:01,196 --> 00:28:03,781
if they extend the run, you gotta stay, right?
321
00:28:05,867 --> 00:28:08,160
Course you gotta stay. I recognise that.
322
00:28:08,243 --> 00:28:10,621
I'm not thrilled about it, but you know...
323
00:28:10,704 --> 00:28:12,746
I recognise it.
324
00:28:15,167 --> 00:28:17,210
It's water, Miranda.
325
00:28:17,293 --> 00:28:19,337
No, it is, it's water.
326
00:28:20,422 --> 00:28:21,588
Listen.
327
00:28:23,424 --> 00:28:25,467
Ah! Sweet H2O.
328
00:28:27,301 --> 00:28:28,970
Yeah.
329
00:28:29,094 --> 00:28:31,388
No, it's fine. The writing's going fine.
330
00:28:34,349 --> 00:28:36,309
The truth? OK.
331
00:28:36,434 --> 00:28:37,643
Um...
332
00:28:37,726 --> 00:28:39,772
The truth is,
333
00:28:39,854 --> 00:28:41,690
whenever I sit down to write,
334
00:28:41,772 --> 00:28:44,775
I think I'm coming out of the gate
with something fresh and...
335
00:28:44,858 --> 00:28:47,569
it winds up being a different spin on Boneyard.
336
00:28:48,779 --> 00:28:51,823
I've basically been rewriting
the same story for three years
337
00:28:51,905 --> 00:28:54,324
and I still can't get the damn thing published.
338
00:28:57,201 --> 00:28:58,995
Thanks, honey.
339
00:28:59,078 --> 00:29:03,376
No, I appreciate it, but you're not really a writer
unless people are reading your shit.
340
00:29:07,628 --> 00:29:09,671
So, Miranda, look...
341
00:29:09,754 --> 00:29:11,882
I'm excited for you, really.
342
00:29:12,049 --> 00:29:13,633
I am.
343
00:29:14,925 --> 00:29:18,386
I'm fired up about all this.
I love that it's going so well for you.
344
00:29:18,470 --> 00:29:21,014
This might be that big break
you've been looking for.
345
00:29:21,181 --> 00:29:25,308
When that comes along, you've gotta
tear into that shit like a rabid dog.
346
00:29:25,434 --> 00:29:27,476
I recognise that.
347
00:29:30,982 --> 00:29:33,316
It'd just be a lot easier if you were here.
348
00:29:34,151 --> 00:29:37,529
..FitzgeraId's arrest.
Why did you do it?
349
00:29:39,238 --> 00:29:42,199
Any connection
between the two teens is uncIear.
350
00:29:42,282 --> 00:29:44,326
We 'II have more news right after this.
351
00:29:44,409 --> 00:29:47,370
Nobody enjoys shopping
for auto insurance.
352
00:29:47,495 --> 00:29:50,081
but try and do it when you've had
three speeding tickets.
353
00:29:50,164 --> 00:29:52,209
Or an accident.
354
00:30:04,719 --> 00:30:08,471
I recall when our lives were unusual and electric,
355
00:30:10,139 --> 00:30:12,683
when we burned with something close to fire.
356
00:30:14,517 --> 00:30:16,688
But now, we sway to a different rhythm.
357
00:30:17,981 --> 00:30:21,733
Lives lived without meaning
or even directed hope.
358
00:30:23,610 --> 00:30:25,986
The passage of time measured only by loss.
359
00:30:27,530 --> 00:30:29,239
Loss of a job,
360
00:30:29,364 --> 00:30:31,199
Ioss of a minivan...
361
00:30:33,408 --> 00:30:35,452
..a son.
362
00:30:49,048 --> 00:30:50,550
Hi, Beth.
363
00:31:54,311 --> 00:31:55,981
Are you OK?
364
00:31:56,106 --> 00:31:57,607
What?
365
00:31:59,025 --> 00:32:01,193
Sorry, what did you say?
366
00:32:01,277 --> 00:32:02,736
I asked if you were OK.
367
00:32:04,695 --> 00:32:07,781
Yeah. Am l... Am I OK about that guy, right?
368
00:32:18,373 --> 00:32:20,627
Kinda seemed like he was bothering you.
369
00:32:21,712 --> 00:32:24,255
That's OK. Er...it happens all the time.
370
00:32:24,422 --> 00:32:26,548
I think it's the uniform.
371
00:32:27,882 --> 00:32:30,301
I have to wear it atthis schooI that I go to.
372
00:32:30,426 --> 00:32:36,138
And it's supposed to be really plain. The whole
point of wearing it is so you don't stand out.
373
00:32:36,222 --> 00:32:39,100
I think aII it reaIIy does
is turn on horny oId guys.
374
00:32:43,352 --> 00:32:45,398
Is it a Catholic school?
375
00:32:47,858 --> 00:32:49,819
No, it's pretty much the opposite.
376
00:32:49,944 --> 00:32:52,195
It's for people who messed up.
377
00:32:52,278 --> 00:32:54,864
Messed up in what way?
378
00:32:57,491 --> 00:32:59,576
All kinds of ways, different ways.
379
00:33:00,826 --> 00:33:02,787
Well, what way did you mess up?
380
00:33:02,870 --> 00:33:06,581
Did you really come over here
to ask me about my screwed-up life?
381
00:33:09,293 --> 00:33:11,336
No, I came over here cos...
382
00:33:11,420 --> 00:33:13,547
I thought that guy was bothering you.
383
00:33:14,505 --> 00:33:17,342
And because I think you're really pretty.
384
00:33:24,054 --> 00:33:26,348
People don't really say pretty any more.
385
00:33:26,515 --> 00:33:28,557
They say stuff...
386
00:33:28,641 --> 00:33:30,936
You know, girls or whatever, they say...
387
00:33:31,853 --> 00:33:34,606
..stuff is beautiful or cute but...
388
00:33:36,066 --> 00:33:39,443
..I like pretty, I like the way it sounds.
389
00:33:39,527 --> 00:33:40,528
It's...
390
00:33:41,487 --> 00:33:43,530
It's a cooI word.
391
00:33:44,364 --> 00:33:46,407
Thanks for calling me pretty.
392
00:33:50,119 --> 00:33:52,203
I'm Leland.
393
00:33:52,286 --> 00:33:54,330
Leland P Fitzgerald.
394
00:33:55,832 --> 00:33:56,998
Becky.
395
00:33:57,165 --> 00:33:58,877
Becky Pollard.
396
00:34:02,171 --> 00:34:04,548
I don't bIame Becky.
397
00:34:04,632 --> 00:34:08,093
I guess I'm supposed to be upset
about what happened with her.
398
00:34:08,218 --> 00:34:11,304
I'm supposed to cry and aII thatjunk.
399
00:34:11,387 --> 00:34:15,223
But I'm pretty sure I've cried aII the tears I had
out of me by now.
400
00:34:17,892 --> 00:34:20,769
The Iast time I cried was Grandma's funeraI.
401
00:34:22,228 --> 00:34:25,274
Here's another one of those things that sticks.
402
00:34:25,358 --> 00:34:27,485
I remember this other kid.
403
00:34:27,651 --> 00:34:29,610
Some cousin of mine or something.
404
00:34:29,736 --> 00:34:33,615
He was sitting there reaI poIite
with his hands foIded up in his Iap.
405
00:34:33,782 --> 00:34:38,827
I figured that was the way you were supposed
to be. I didn't want that kid to see me crying.
406
00:34:42,830 --> 00:34:44,831
But the tears came, anyway.
407
00:34:49,045 --> 00:34:54,341
That's when I figured out that tears couIdn't
make someone who was dead aIive again.
408
00:34:57,677 --> 00:35:01,180
? We were given some time...
409
00:35:04,224 --> 00:35:06,726
There's another thing to Iearn about tears.
410
00:35:15,442 --> 00:35:19,780
They can't make somebody who doesn't
Iove you any more Iove you again.
411
00:35:25,951 --> 00:35:28,869
Uh-huh?
- It's me, it's Beck.
412
00:35:28,953 --> 00:35:31,454
It's the same thing with prayers.
413
00:35:32,539 --> 00:35:36,252
I wonder how much of their Iives peopIe waste,
crying and praying to God,
414
00:35:36,335 --> 00:35:39,213
trying to make things that happened unhappen.
415
00:35:44,509 --> 00:35:47,845
If you ask me,
the deviI makes more sense than God does.
416
00:35:47,969 --> 00:35:50,888
I can at Ieast see
why peopIe wouId want him around.
417
00:35:53,891 --> 00:35:57,394
It's good to have somebody to bIame
for the bad stuff they do.
418
00:36:00,731 --> 00:36:01,732
Wha...
419
00:36:01,816 --> 00:36:03,275
What's wrong?
420
00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:05,318
Nothing. I sh...
421
00:36:05,444 --> 00:36:07,654
It's just that this is going kinda fast.
422
00:36:07,737 --> 00:36:12,032
I'm not saying that's bad...or anything.
423
00:36:15,493 --> 00:36:18,120
This just isn't normally how I operate.
424
00:36:18,203 --> 00:36:19,287
Oh.
425
00:36:19,370 --> 00:36:21,581
Particularly not with somebody from work.
426
00:36:21,706 --> 00:36:26,670
Well, how long does it normally take you
to seduce one of your co-workers?
427
00:36:26,795 --> 00:36:28,546
I didn't seduce you.
428
00:36:28,671 --> 00:36:29,797
- No?
- No.
429
00:36:29,923 --> 00:36:32,549
Oh, come on. You're beautiful.
430
00:36:33,925 --> 00:36:35,970
You're beyond that.
431
00:36:36,053 --> 00:36:38,221
You have no idea how beautiful you are.
432
00:36:41,681 --> 00:36:43,725
You're deadly.
433
00:36:45,477 --> 00:36:47,144
You're deadly.
434
00:36:47,185 --> 00:36:49,104
I'm powerless before you.
435
00:36:49,857 --> 00:36:52,316
- You hanging out for a while?
436
00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:54,026
I'm staying.
437
00:36:54,151 --> 00:36:55,695
Cool.
438
00:36:55,778 --> 00:36:57,821
That's cool, you know.
439
00:36:57,904 --> 00:36:59,948
That makes me happy.
440
00:37:02,199 --> 00:37:03,701
Cos...
441
00:37:03,785 --> 00:37:05,827
I kinda wanted to kiss you.
442
00:37:06,953 --> 00:37:09,747
? I had no light to follow...
443
00:37:09,831 --> 00:37:12,165
I wanna kiss you real bad, to say it right.
444
00:37:14,669 --> 00:37:16,713
So can I kiss you?
445
00:37:16,796 --> 00:37:20,257
? I tell you how, three days I tried
446
00:37:20,340 --> 00:37:21,883
? To wake me up
447
00:37:21,966 --> 00:37:23,844
? Oh, but no
448
00:37:23,927 --> 00:37:26,763
? My flesh had turned to snow
449
00:37:26,887 --> 00:37:30,223
? And I thought I had died...
450
00:37:30,306 --> 00:37:32,350
I missed you.
451
00:37:34,642 --> 00:37:37,437
- I always miss you.
? I have seen the face of God
452
00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:40,608
? And I was not afraid
453
00:37:41,693 --> 00:37:45,111
? I have seen the face of God
454
00:37:53,827 --> 00:37:55,870
- So you're a writer?
- Well...
455
00:37:57,038 --> 00:38:00,749
You're not really a writer
unless people are reading your shit.
456
00:38:00,832 --> 00:38:02,875
I'm an aspiring writer.
457
00:38:05,963 --> 00:38:08,006
What do you write about?
458
00:38:12,551 --> 00:38:14,553
Did you hear about that kid?
459
00:38:15,804 --> 00:38:18,180
The one who stabbed that retarded kid?
460
00:38:20,182 --> 00:38:21,308
Yeah.
461
00:38:23,435 --> 00:38:25,478
I'm gonna write about him.
462
00:38:28,941 --> 00:38:31,777
I'm gonna write a book
about Leland P Fitzgerald.
463
00:38:37,406 --> 00:38:42,035
Maybe God's there because
peopIe get scared of aII the bad stuff they do.
464
00:38:52,837 --> 00:38:57,716
They fiGure that God and the DeviI are aIways
pIaying this tug-o '-war game with them.
465
00:39:13,727 --> 00:39:16,897
And they never know
which side they're gonna wind up on.
466
00:39:29,408 --> 00:39:30,869
Boo!
467
00:39:32,202 --> 00:39:34,579
You know, you're a real goofball sometimes.
468
00:39:38,207 --> 00:39:39,750
Hey, speaking of goofballs...
469
00:39:39,833 --> 00:39:41,961
Um, this is my little brother, Ryan.
470
00:39:42,086 --> 00:39:44,088
Sing a song.
471
00:39:44,213 --> 00:39:46,757
- Bye-bye, Ryan. See you tomorrow.
- Thanks.
472
00:39:47,967 --> 00:39:50,010
It's nice... nice to meet you.
473
00:39:50,093 --> 00:39:52,136
Sing a song!
474
00:39:52,261 --> 00:39:55,181
It's about all he says, but watch.
475
00:39:56,265 --> 00:39:59,017
? l-l-l-ltsy-bitsy spider
476
00:39:59,100 --> 00:40:01,018
No, no!
477
00:40:01,102 --> 00:40:04,396
As soon as you start singing,
he gets all mad at you.
478
00:40:04,521 --> 00:40:06,983
You don't really know what you want,
do you, goofy?
479
00:40:08,610 --> 00:40:12,279
I guess that tug-o'-war idea
expIains how sometimes...
480
00:40:12,362 --> 00:40:14,905
I mean, when peopIe try to do something good,
481
00:40:16,032 --> 00:40:18,075
it stiII turns out bad.
482
00:40:20,952 --> 00:40:24,163
Don't use that "young lives" BS on me, Madison.
483
00:40:24,247 --> 00:40:27,416
Why does this minor deserve
special consideration?
484
00:40:27,499 --> 00:40:32,296
I recognise you're wanting to preserve
the whole "treat everybody equal" thing.
485
00:40:32,380 --> 00:40:34,089
But this kid is different.
486
00:40:34,215 --> 00:40:36,091
You can't deny that.
487
00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:38,885
We've never seen a case like this before.
Nobody has.
488
00:40:40,511 --> 00:40:44,097
The answer is, and will remain in perpetuity, no.
489
00:40:45,431 --> 00:40:49,143
I wiII not have you meeting with any minor
outside the cIassroom.
490
00:40:49,226 --> 00:40:51,270
Am I cIear?
491
00:40:52,937 --> 00:40:54,481
Very clear.
492
00:40:54,606 --> 00:40:57,359
So your lawyer, Charlie... It's Charlie, right?
493
00:40:57,484 --> 00:41:01,738
So he explained how all this works? You don't
have to enter a plea or say a word here.
494
00:41:01,821 --> 00:41:03,990
- I'm not gonna enter a plea.
- OK.
495
00:41:04,073 --> 00:41:06,658
I'm just gonna tell them that I did it.
496
00:41:06,825 --> 00:41:11,245
Well, if you do that, then you're gonna get
shuttled out of here in a heartbeat.
497
00:41:11,328 --> 00:41:13,372
I don't wanna lose you yet, man.
498
00:41:14,915 --> 00:41:18,000
I wanna get a chance to know
what the US of L is all about.
499
00:41:19,377 --> 00:41:22,548
I thought you said
your girlfriend was in Los AngeIes?
500
00:41:23,548 --> 00:41:24,800
She is.
501
00:41:24,883 --> 00:41:26,717
Well, how do you explain the smell?
502
00:41:26,801 --> 00:41:28,594
What smell?
503
00:41:28,677 --> 00:41:30,720
The smell of a girl.
504
00:41:40,561 --> 00:41:43,772
Will you at least think about what I said?
505
00:41:43,856 --> 00:41:46,234
Yeah, I think about a lot of things.
506
00:41:53,199 --> 00:41:54,365
Hey!
507
00:41:54,532 --> 00:41:56,534
Hi, Mr Pollard.
508
00:41:56,659 --> 00:41:58,910
I'm Leland, Becky's friend.
509
00:41:58,994 --> 00:42:02,830
What happened?
- He rode his bike through some branches.
510
00:42:02,914 --> 00:42:05,458
I told him to cut it out but he just kept going.
511
00:42:05,541 --> 00:42:08,876
Hey, buddy, let me just have a look...
512
00:42:08,962 --> 00:42:11,756
If we don't leave in the next ten minutes...
Where's Becky?
513
00:42:11,882 --> 00:42:15,468
- What did he do?
- It's nothing. It's just a torn sleeve.
514
00:42:15,551 --> 00:42:17,928
- Sing a song.
- I'll get him changed.
515
00:42:18,094 --> 00:42:21,056
I don't think he was trying to screw up anything.
516
00:42:22,180 --> 00:42:24,432
It just kinda seemed
like something he had to do.
517
00:42:24,516 --> 00:42:27,226
Well, thanks for making sure he got home.
518
00:42:27,309 --> 00:42:31,064
Oh, well, we've been walking home together
for a while now, so...
519
00:42:31,896 --> 00:42:35,943
Did you see Beckytoday? Did she
mention anything about something coming up?
520
00:42:37,820 --> 00:42:40,572
I waited for her after school
but she didn't show up.
521
00:42:40,655 --> 00:42:43,991
So... I guess she just didn't wanna see me today.
522
00:42:45,201 --> 00:42:48,162
But it's really no big deal for me
to take Ryan home.
523
00:42:49,120 --> 00:42:51,164
Kinda get a bang out of him.
524
00:42:52,289 --> 00:42:53,583
You need a ride home?
525
00:42:53,708 --> 00:42:56,293
Allen's about ready to head out
for baseball practice.
526
00:42:56,376 --> 00:42:58,422
I'm sure he wouldn't mind giving you a lift.
527
00:42:58,505 --> 00:43:00,548
Well, thanks, Mr Pollard.
528
00:43:08,179 --> 00:43:10,222
Are you going to work?
529
00:43:10,305 --> 00:43:11,849
No.
530
00:43:13,266 --> 00:43:14,725
No, I mean...
531
00:43:15,810 --> 00:43:18,603
..just for a minute, a couple of things.
532
00:43:43,792 --> 00:43:45,835
Why did you do it?
533
00:43:45,918 --> 00:43:47,963
I got it.
534
00:44:03,600 --> 00:44:05,726
Check the door.
- Stop here.
535
00:44:24,202 --> 00:44:26,203
Let's go, kid.
536
00:44:38,423 --> 00:44:40,883
Is that aII, counseI?
- Yes, your Honour.
537
00:44:44,302 --> 00:44:48,097
The minor's Iack of a criminaI record
and the exempIary schooI performance
538
00:44:48,181 --> 00:44:52,059
are irreIevant matters here
due to the severity of the charges.
539
00:44:52,142 --> 00:44:57,355
And I am denying your request that the minor
be remanded into the custody of his mother.
540
00:44:57,438 --> 00:45:00,607
Is there something you'd Iike to add,
young man?
541
00:45:03,861 --> 00:45:05,864
No, Your Honour.
542
00:45:13,202 --> 00:45:15,204
Do you Iive at the PoIIards'?
543
00:45:15,287 --> 00:45:18,498
Yeah, I know what you're thinking.
544
00:45:18,581 --> 00:45:20,917
- It's a IittIe strange?
- No.
545
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:24,669
- You don't think it's strange?
- No, it's just not what I was thinking.
546
00:45:27,840 --> 00:45:29,675
I think it's kinda strange sometimes.
547
00:45:34,303 --> 00:45:36,055
My mom died last summer.
548
00:45:36,138 --> 00:45:38,182
A car accident.
549
00:45:39,182 --> 00:45:41,226
My dad's a Iot cIoser with Tanya.
550
00:45:41,309 --> 00:45:43,269
That's my oIder sister.
551
00:45:43,353 --> 00:45:48,106
He's a lot closer with her than me, so it really
wasn't a big deal for him when I moved.
552
00:45:48,190 --> 00:45:50,985
I turn on Goldencrest, right?
553
00:45:51,069 --> 00:45:53,404
Oh, you can just drop me off at school.
554
00:45:53,488 --> 00:45:58,241
Oh, I'm not going another way or anything.
It's reaIIy no big deaI to take you home.
555
00:45:58,325 --> 00:46:01,452
Mr Pollard said you had
a baseball practice or something.
556
00:46:03,328 --> 00:46:04,411
No.
557
00:46:05,329 --> 00:46:06,915
I quit last week.
558
00:46:07,039 --> 00:46:08,415
Why did you quit?
559
00:46:08,498 --> 00:46:11,418
I was pIaying terribIe.
I couIdn't get my head in the game.
560
00:46:11,501 --> 00:46:14,462
And it's been a rough year
with my mom and all, so...
561
00:46:17,216 --> 00:46:20,426
But Julie and I are going to ASU next year.
562
00:46:20,510 --> 00:46:24,763
Maybe I'll walk on there.
You know, things'll be a lot more settled, then.
563
00:46:29,601 --> 00:46:31,644
- Briefcase?
- Briefcase.
564
00:46:32,936 --> 00:46:34,479
Thanks. Appreciate it.
565
00:46:34,646 --> 00:46:36,690
I'm the one going home with play-off tickets.
566
00:46:36,772 --> 00:46:39,736
Game three, down 0-2 to the Spurs?
That ain't much, man.
567
00:46:39,861 --> 00:46:41,778
The Suns never get out of the first round.
568
00:46:41,903 --> 00:46:46,532
I don't know, man, Marbury's hitting his shots,
we play up tempo? Damn fine ball club.
569
00:46:46,615 --> 00:46:48,367
Your lips.
570
00:46:48,450 --> 00:46:50,493
I see this kid got to you, too, huh?
571
00:46:50,577 --> 00:46:52,203
What do you mean?
572
00:46:52,287 --> 00:46:57,249
It's always hard for me to picture these pimply
little mama's boys doing what you know they did.
573
00:46:58,333 --> 00:47:02,670
But this one even more so than the others.
I can't see this kid hurting a fly.
574
00:47:02,752 --> 00:47:04,507
He's definitely fascinating.
575
00:47:04,590 --> 00:47:07,759
Yeah, well, you're the writer. You give it a word.
576
00:47:07,842 --> 00:47:10,719
That's precisely what I plan to do.
577
00:47:25,272 --> 00:47:27,316
Oh, have you ever read Proust?
578
00:47:27,441 --> 00:47:29,444
I know what you want from me.
579
00:47:31,112 --> 00:47:32,572
Yeah?
580
00:47:32,697 --> 00:47:35,658
I just... I just want you
to have somebody to talk to.
581
00:47:41,078 --> 00:47:43,621
It's the same thing they want from the trial.
582
00:47:43,746 --> 00:47:45,749
What's that?
583
00:47:47,375 --> 00:47:49,418
You want a why.
584
00:47:50,377 --> 00:47:52,545
Well, maybe there isn't one. Maybe...
585
00:47:53,506 --> 00:47:56,258
Maybe this is just something that happened.
586
00:48:04,473 --> 00:48:06,516
Excuse me.
587
00:48:06,599 --> 00:48:09,310
- lsn't the game on?
- What game?
588
00:48:12,187 --> 00:48:15,190
Could you please just change the channel?
589
00:48:15,315 --> 00:48:16,815
Yeah.
590
00:48:18,820 --> 00:48:20,863
It's depressing me, too.
591
00:48:29,620 --> 00:48:31,496
I like that title.
592
00:48:31,620 --> 00:48:34,373
It's not supposed to mean
I'm the President or anything.
593
00:48:34,457 --> 00:48:37,042
Mostly it's just a joke.
594
00:48:39,752 --> 00:48:41,504
Well, what do you write about?
595
00:48:41,588 --> 00:48:43,633
I guess, how I see the world.
596
00:48:46,134 --> 00:48:47,928
How do you see the world, Pearl?
597
00:48:48,053 --> 00:48:50,095
Full of possibilities.
598
00:48:50,179 --> 00:48:53,848
I think that good things abound, positive things.
What about you?
599
00:48:57,560 --> 00:48:59,602
There's two ways to see it.
600
00:49:01,063 --> 00:49:03,397
One is like what you said, where life is OK.
601
00:49:03,481 --> 00:49:06,611
Where maybe stuff's wrong
but you just don't see it.
602
00:49:07,737 --> 00:49:09,779
What's the other way?
603
00:49:12,281 --> 00:49:14,283
When you see what's reaIIy there.
604
00:49:16,368 --> 00:49:18,369
The sadness?
605
00:49:18,494 --> 00:49:21,205
He didn't give you any idea
what that might have meant?
606
00:49:24,874 --> 00:49:26,918
He didn't say much.
607
00:49:27,001 --> 00:49:31,005
When I got home,
all he said was that he'd made a mistake.
608
00:49:33,091 --> 00:49:36,761
I saw his hand and I drove him to the hospital.
609
00:49:38,679 --> 00:49:40,722
He didn't make a sound on the drive.
610
00:49:43,057 --> 00:49:45,100
It's always there.
611
00:49:46,393 --> 00:49:48,436
Even when stuff looks good.
612
00:49:49,313 --> 00:49:53,065
When kids are playing,
couples are kissing and junk.
613
00:49:53,190 --> 00:49:57,362
It's in all of that stuff.
But mostly, people just look right through it.
614
00:49:57,446 --> 00:49:59,322
What's the "it"?
615
00:49:59,406 --> 00:50:01,991
I mean, what don't they see?
616
00:50:02,074 --> 00:50:05,618
Just how everything's always slipping away.
617
00:50:07,871 --> 00:50:10,622
How everyone's always kind of dying inside.
618
00:50:10,705 --> 00:50:13,124
How sad everybody reaIIy is.
619
00:50:13,207 --> 00:50:17,294
And seeing things this way makes you feel sad?
620
00:50:19,712 --> 00:50:22,050
It doesn't make me feel much of anything.
621
00:50:24,635 --> 00:50:27,471
Did you notice anything different about him?
622
00:50:27,555 --> 00:50:29,388
Today?
623
00:50:30,432 --> 00:50:32,475
When he visited.
624
00:50:32,558 --> 00:50:34,601
Nothing unusual.
625
00:50:35,602 --> 00:50:37,937
Ever since he got back this time,
626
00:50:38,020 --> 00:50:40,981
from the moment I picked him up at the airport...
627
00:50:44,609 --> 00:50:46,654
..something wasn't right with him.
628
00:50:48,738 --> 00:50:50,783
I figured maybe the two of you had a fight.
629
00:50:52,617 --> 00:50:54,076
No.
630
00:50:55,328 --> 00:50:57,370
Perhaps he was just upset about that girl.
631
00:50:58,288 --> 00:51:01,207
Sometimes, things don't work out
between people.
632
00:51:01,331 --> 00:51:03,250
And it's nobody's fault.
633
00:51:05,127 --> 00:51:08,171
- That's a very mature approach.
- I don't know.
634
00:51:09,632 --> 00:51:12,676
Well, you tell me. How's your girl?
635
00:51:12,760 --> 00:51:15,179
Miranda? Oh, Miranda's great.
636
00:51:15,262 --> 00:51:17,304
I meant the other girl.
637
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:21,141
Oh, that's just something that happened.
638
00:51:22,600 --> 00:51:26,853
Would it hurt Miranda if she found out
about this something that happened?
639
00:51:26,978 --> 00:51:28,439
Yeah.
640
00:51:29,897 --> 00:51:31,941
So, why did you do it?
641
00:51:36,530 --> 00:51:38,574
She's not gonna find out.
642
00:51:40,616 --> 00:51:42,409
Does that make it OK?
643
00:51:42,493 --> 00:51:43,744
OK?
644
00:51:46,079 --> 00:51:48,956
Look, Miranda's been gone
for a long time now, OK?
645
00:51:49,081 --> 00:51:51,500
I'm not even really sure where we stand.
646
00:51:51,584 --> 00:51:53,793
And I'm only human, man.
647
00:51:53,877 --> 00:51:57,588
It's funny how people only say that
after they do something bad.
648
00:52:00,592 --> 00:52:05,972
You never hear someone say, "I'm only human"
after they rescue a kid from a burning building.
649
00:52:16,105 --> 00:52:18,147
- Thanks for the ride.
- You bet.
650
00:52:25,906 --> 00:52:27,948
Hey, Leland.
651
00:52:32,035 --> 00:52:34,371
There's something I wanted to tell you...
652
00:52:34,454 --> 00:52:35,996
about Becky.
653
00:52:40,499 --> 00:52:43,586
You know the reason
she's in that probation school, right?
654
00:52:44,671 --> 00:52:46,713
She told me she messed up.
655
00:52:48,007 --> 00:52:50,051
You didn't ask how?
656
00:52:53,053 --> 00:52:55,513
I figured she'd tell me if it was important.
657
00:52:59,475 --> 00:53:01,435
It was drug stuff.
658
00:53:04,520 --> 00:53:07,440
Listen, I don't wanna tell you anything
you don't wanna hear.
659
00:53:07,565 --> 00:53:09,149
No, you can tell me.
660
00:53:09,232 --> 00:53:10,858
You can tell me.
661
00:53:13,487 --> 00:53:15,531
She kind of fell in with this guy,
662
00:53:15,656 --> 00:53:17,825
this older guy, Kevin.
663
00:53:19,450 --> 00:53:21,202
I don't know, he's, like, 20.
664
00:53:22,913 --> 00:53:24,955
He's a drug deaIer.
665
00:53:27,416 --> 00:53:30,918
She ran away with him for a whiIe Iast year.
666
00:53:31,043 --> 00:53:32,961
It got reaIIy, reaIIy messy.
667
00:53:34,379 --> 00:53:36,841
Mrs Pollard had to go pull her out of there.
668
00:53:38,092 --> 00:53:40,970
- But...
- What?
669
00:53:42,262 --> 00:53:44,305
Kevin got out of jaiI today.
670
00:53:46,349 --> 00:53:48,309
Mrs Pollard.
671
00:53:48,434 --> 00:53:51,852
The receipt will take a minute
so I'll go ahead and bring her round.
672
00:53:55,189 --> 00:53:56,731
What's the damage?
673
00:53:56,814 --> 00:53:59,025
I didn't even look. I just signed.
674
00:53:59,108 --> 00:54:01,945
- What's today? The date today?
- It's the 24th.
675
00:54:02,822 --> 00:54:05,032
Julie is running up against the ASU deadline.
676
00:54:05,115 --> 00:54:07,074
- You sent yours in, didn't you?
- Yeah.
677
00:54:08,159 --> 00:54:10,202
Yeah, I don't know, erm...
678
00:54:10,285 --> 00:54:11,828
Maybe...
679
00:54:11,953 --> 00:54:14,080
Maybe she's stiII not sure, you know.
680
00:54:18,251 --> 00:54:19,543
I don't know.
681
00:54:19,625 --> 00:54:23,755
Maybe she just wants to make sure
it's the best place for her.
682
00:54:25,464 --> 00:54:28,636
I saw you the other night,
the way you were hoIding her,
683
00:54:28,719 --> 00:54:31,555
the way you Iook at her even when she's asIeep.
684
00:54:33,097 --> 00:54:35,140
T ake care of Julie for me.
685
00:54:35,223 --> 00:54:38,059
I can't lose her, too. She's all I have left.
686
00:54:41,187 --> 00:54:44,855
Look at that sunshine.
I don't even remember what it feels like.
687
00:54:50,863 --> 00:54:52,905
What did you do to get in here?
688
00:54:56,034 --> 00:54:58,076
Wrong place, wrong time.
689
00:55:00,453 --> 00:55:02,454
That's against the law?
690
00:55:02,579 --> 00:55:06,584
If you're a 1 7-year-old black dude
with an old-school Dr J 'fro, it is.
691
00:55:07,500 --> 00:55:09,461
See you in class, devil boy.
692
00:55:14,006 --> 00:55:16,051
Long live Satan.
693
00:55:28,602 --> 00:55:30,770
Hey, pick up.
694
00:55:30,853 --> 00:55:35,273
I know you're sitting there with a bottIe of wine
watching basketbaII.
695
00:55:36,191 --> 00:55:38,234
I can see you.
696
00:55:38,318 --> 00:55:40,279
Er, OK, fine.
697
00:55:40,404 --> 00:55:41,572
Um...
698
00:55:42,615 --> 00:55:46,493
I miss you and I wanna see you again aIready.
699
00:55:46,576 --> 00:55:49,453
I was thinkinG, you know, since I 'm stuck here,
700
00:55:49,578 --> 00:55:52,164
maybe you couId come up and visit.
701
00:55:52,248 --> 00:55:54,374
I know it wasn't part of the pIan but...
702
00:56:02,714 --> 00:56:06,093
AII right, couId you check
on the name Martin AngIe?
703
00:56:09,429 --> 00:56:10,847
OK, er...one second.
704
00:56:10,930 --> 00:56:14,308
Could you check David Stith? S-T-l-T-H.
705
00:56:18,602 --> 00:56:22,439
I'm sory, there 's just one more.
EdGar Pinkerton.
706
00:56:26,401 --> 00:56:29,697
You do? OK, could you tell me
the room number that Mr...
707
00:56:31,031 --> 00:56:33,075
No, OK, that's fine. That's fine.
708
00:56:34,033 --> 00:56:36,077
Is there a bar in the hotel?
709
00:56:39,580 --> 00:56:40,706
Hi.
710
00:56:42,415 --> 00:56:44,208
Er, excuse me?
711
00:56:44,333 --> 00:56:46,668
They won't let me get a pitcher if I'm alone
712
00:56:46,751 --> 00:56:49,587
so I was wondering if I could say
that I'm drinking with you?
713
00:56:51,338 --> 00:56:53,134
Fiction or non?
714
00:56:56,053 --> 00:56:57,262
Fiction.
715
00:56:57,345 --> 00:57:01,640
Yeah, you can sit down if you want,
but you should have checked at the bar first.
716
00:57:01,765 --> 00:57:03,809
- They don't have anything on tap here.
- Ah.
717
00:57:03,935 --> 00:57:06,060
- Drink?
- Please, thank you.
718
00:57:08,229 --> 00:57:10,021
I'm sorry to be intruding like this.
719
00:57:10,105 --> 00:57:12,941
But I'm a big fan.
I've read everything you've ever written.
720
00:57:13,024 --> 00:57:14,816
Evidently, Edgar Falling included.
721
00:57:15,985 --> 00:57:19,572
And now that you've read my work, you know
I'm not a fag so I don't wanna fuck you,
722
00:57:19,655 --> 00:57:22,116
and you've probably heard
that I'm an asshole, so...
723
00:57:22,241 --> 00:57:27,162
I'm not going to read your passionate
semi-autobiographical first novel
724
00:57:27,287 --> 00:57:29,331
and pass it on to my agent.
725
00:57:30,998 --> 00:57:34,001
I work at the juvenile hall
where Leland's being detained.
726
00:57:38,295 --> 00:57:39,921
How's he holding up?
727
00:57:40,005 --> 00:57:41,632
He's fine.
728
00:57:41,716 --> 00:57:44,553
Well, no, he's in Special Handling,
so he's isolated now.
729
00:57:44,677 --> 00:57:46,221
Can you get me in to see him?
730
00:57:46,304 --> 00:57:49,139
Oh, I don't have that kinda juice.
I'm just a teacher there.
731
00:57:49,223 --> 00:57:51,892
Visiting day's next Sunday if you wanna...
732
00:57:51,976 --> 00:57:54,102
You don't think I'm aware of that?
733
00:57:57,353 --> 00:57:59,398
Did he do it?
734
00:57:59,481 --> 00:58:02,524
I'm not really allowed to talk about that
outside the facility.
735
00:58:02,607 --> 00:58:04,819
Perhaps he told you something?
736
00:58:07,114 --> 00:58:08,156
Yeah.
737
00:58:09,032 --> 00:58:11,034
yeah, he says he did it.
738
00:58:12,659 --> 00:58:16,037
But I don't know why.
I don't think he knows why, either.
739
00:58:16,120 --> 00:58:18,372
You know your son, he's very detached.
740
00:58:18,456 --> 00:58:22,334
Most of the time, he seems
completely disinterested in his own fate.
741
00:58:22,417 --> 00:58:24,461
Uninterested in his own fate?
742
00:58:25,836 --> 00:58:30,090
Look, if you think I'm gonna be able to provide
some insight into Leland, you're wrong.
743
00:58:30,215 --> 00:58:34,554
There are no private spaces in my son's heart
reserved for me. There never have been.
744
00:58:34,637 --> 00:58:36,680
You moved to Paris...
745
00:58:36,763 --> 00:58:39,849
America's Too Loud, that was what? '94, '95?
746
00:58:39,932 --> 00:58:41,475
So Leland was...?
747
00:58:41,600 --> 00:58:43,769
Chronologies have never been my strong suit.
748
00:58:43,853 --> 00:58:47,397
Well, was he angry with you for leaving,
for moving away?
749
00:58:47,522 --> 00:58:51,358
I'm not really that adept at gauging
people's emotional reactions to events.
750
00:58:51,441 --> 00:58:54,360
I disagree. I've read your books.
751
00:58:54,443 --> 00:58:57,073
Mmm, so have l.
752
00:58:57,157 --> 00:58:59,199
They haven't helped.
753
00:58:59,282 --> 00:59:01,743
Well, he still visits you out there, right?
754
00:59:01,868 --> 00:59:04,954
He said he gets out there
a couple of times a year, so...
755
00:59:05,037 --> 00:59:06,997
What are your visits like?
756
00:59:11,000 --> 00:59:12,459
Chapter Two, right?
757
00:59:12,543 --> 00:59:14,586
I'm sorry?
758
00:59:14,670 --> 00:59:16,713
Fiction.
759
00:59:17,797 --> 00:59:22,594
You're not here out of some seIfIess devotion
to my son or your admiration for my work.
760
00:59:22,678 --> 00:59:25,264
you're here because you smeII a good book.
761
00:59:25,389 --> 00:59:27,431
And I'm Chapter Two.
762
00:59:32,060 --> 00:59:33,853
I wanna write about your son.
763
00:59:33,936 --> 00:59:35,897
But I don't wanna exploit him.
764
00:59:35,981 --> 00:59:38,023
There's no distinction.
765
00:59:39,107 --> 00:59:40,942
Good luck with your novel.
766
00:59:41,025 --> 00:59:44,945
Maybe I'll pick it up in the supermarket
checkout line one of these days.
767
00:59:53,079 --> 00:59:56,456
Well, the truth is,
I haven't actually seen my dad since I was six.
768
00:59:56,539 --> 01:00:00,125
I don't understand,
I thought you travelled with him?
769
01:00:00,208 --> 01:00:01,377
Well...
770
01:00:04,254 --> 01:00:07,548
He's sent me plane tickets,
one in the spring, one in the winter,
771
01:00:07,631 --> 01:00:09,298
every year since I was 1 2.
772
01:00:09,382 --> 01:00:11,428
But you never went to Paris?
773
01:00:14,429 --> 01:00:16,973
I never really talked to my dad after he left.
774
01:00:18,392 --> 01:00:22,603
Sometimes he'd send me money
for my birthday, junk like that.
775
01:00:24,562 --> 01:00:28,608
One year, he just decided he wanted me
to come visit him for Christmas.
776
01:00:29,483 --> 01:00:32,653
But I had to fIy to New York first,
then catch a pIane to Paris.
777
01:00:33,611 --> 01:00:36,032
Once I got there, though,
778
01:00:36,116 --> 01:00:38,492
I just kinda decided to stay in New York.
779
01:00:39,785 --> 01:00:43,663
I toId my dad about how there was
this sort of eIectricity in the air there
780
01:00:43,788 --> 01:00:45,832
and how I wanted to stay.
781
01:00:45,915 --> 01:00:47,958
He was OK with it.
782
01:00:48,041 --> 01:00:51,711
He even said something Iike
I was a reaI neat kid for doing it.
783
01:00:52,961 --> 01:00:55,255
Once I got there, I couIdn't find a hoteI.
784
01:00:57,090 --> 01:01:00,970
No-one wouId give me a room.
They were aII so worried to give a kid a room.
785
01:01:01,095 --> 01:01:05,348
But it didn't seem to bother them to send
that same kid onto the street with no pIace to go.
786
01:01:06,265 --> 01:01:09,102
So I decided to hide out for a whiIe.
787
01:01:09,227 --> 01:01:11,186
And I found this movie theatre.
788
01:01:12,479 --> 01:01:16,065
And after the first movie,
this famiIy came and sat down next to me.
789
01:01:17,358 --> 01:01:22,404
And the dad, I guess he noticed
the two big duffeI bags that I had next to me.
790
01:01:23,573 --> 01:01:27,201
He made some corny joke
about whether I was staying for a whiIe.
791
01:01:28,911 --> 01:01:30,953
I toId him how I came to be in New York.
792
01:01:31,996 --> 01:01:34,040
That got the mom's attention.
793
01:01:35,207 --> 01:01:37,250
Her name 's AngeIa.
794
01:01:37,334 --> 01:01:39,919
But I caIIed her Mrs CaIderon then.
795
01:01:43,130 --> 01:01:47,676
She was worried about me. She said
I couId come stay with them for the hoIidays.
796
01:01:47,801 --> 01:01:50,429
I said it sounded pretty good.
797
01:01:52,097 --> 01:01:54,348
You couId teII her pIace cost a fortune.
798
01:01:54,432 --> 01:01:56,475
And her daughter...
799
01:01:57,893 --> 01:01:59,895
She was kind of snobby, but OK.
800
01:02:00,020 --> 01:02:03,105
She just kept trying to kiss me,
and I wasn't into it then.
801
01:02:05,358 --> 01:02:08,901
They were aII reaIIy nice to me,
but particuIarIy Mrs CaIderon.
802
01:02:11,487 --> 01:02:13,531
I just Ioved Iooking into her eyes.
803
01:02:15,075 --> 01:02:18,661
It was like they reflected
the electricity of the whole city.
804
01:02:20,788 --> 01:02:23,499
I didn't feel lonely at all when I was around her.
805
01:02:25,709 --> 01:02:27,418
She kinda made me feel like...
806
01:02:27,585 --> 01:02:29,545
everything was OK.
807
01:02:29,670 --> 01:02:33,089
Or like stuff was wrong but you couldn't see it?
808
01:02:37,052 --> 01:02:40,722
When my dad sent me another ticket that spring,
809
01:02:41,764 --> 01:02:45,100
I kinda figured
maybe I'd just go back to New York instead.
810
01:02:45,976 --> 01:02:48,103
But this ticket was for ltaly.
811
01:02:48,186 --> 01:02:52,856
And my dad said I should fly to a new place
each time, see the world that way.
812
01:02:52,982 --> 01:02:54,523
It could be our little secret.
813
01:02:54,607 --> 01:02:56,650
Where did you go the last time?
814
01:02:58,653 --> 01:03:01,657
WeII, my dad said I shouId see New York
in the spring.
815
01:03:03,325 --> 01:03:05,242
Did you see the Calderons?
816
01:03:08,412 --> 01:03:10,455
Did something happen?
817
01:03:13,291 --> 01:03:15,042
Well, it's a big city.
818
01:03:15,125 --> 01:03:17,586
Something's always happening in New York.
819
01:03:47,277 --> 01:03:49,404
- What the fuck, dude?
- Where is she?
820
01:03:49,488 --> 01:03:51,532
Where's who? And who are you?
821
01:03:53,743 --> 01:03:55,786
AIIen!
822
01:03:55,868 --> 01:03:59,456
- Come on, let's go.
- Where are we going? Go where?
823
01:03:59,539 --> 01:04:02,541
Here, get dressed.
I'm gonna take you home. Come on.
824
01:04:02,624 --> 01:04:04,168
Look, man...
825
01:04:04,335 --> 01:04:06,544
Hey, listen, OK, I'm not gonna beat you.
826
01:04:06,627 --> 01:04:09,172
But this isn't fucking right. This is my place.
827
01:04:09,338 --> 01:04:12,424
I don't know who the fuck you are.
I just wanna know...
828
01:04:12,507 --> 01:04:14,509
who the fuck you are, OK?
829
01:04:20,348 --> 01:04:21,766
Stop!
830
01:04:22,642 --> 01:04:25,602
Do you have any idea
what you're doing to her family?
831
01:04:26,728 --> 01:04:28,396
Do you care?
832
01:04:28,480 --> 01:04:30,315
- Stop!
- Do you even fucking care?
833
01:04:30,398 --> 01:04:34,067
- Stop kicking him! Stop!
- You're destroying her family!
834
01:04:34,150 --> 01:04:35,651
Stop!
835
01:04:37,696 --> 01:04:39,907
You fucking junkie!
836
01:04:44,953 --> 01:04:46,955
Stupid junkie fuck.
837
01:05:05,429 --> 01:05:08,306
I don't think I know
what the definition of Iove is.
838
01:05:08,432 --> 01:05:11,350
You know in your heart
if you Iove somebody.
839
01:05:13,185 --> 01:05:15,229
But it's not in your heart.
840
01:05:15,312 --> 01:05:17,354
Love's on your tongue.
841
01:05:17,480 --> 01:05:19,481
It's a word, that's aII.
842
01:05:20,358 --> 01:05:22,609
OK, did you tell Becky you loved her?
843
01:05:26,153 --> 01:05:28,072
She said she Ioved you?
844
01:05:28,949 --> 01:05:31,575
But she still broke up with you, right?
845
01:05:31,659 --> 01:05:33,703
I'm not angry with her.
846
01:05:35,203 --> 01:05:36,997
I was never angry with her.
847
01:05:37,080 --> 01:05:40,207
It's OK to be angry.
I mean, you're practically entitled to it.
848
01:05:42,376 --> 01:05:43,503
Why?
849
01:05:44,544 --> 01:05:46,213
You're onIy human.
850
01:05:47,338 --> 01:05:49,381
I mean, you are human, aren't you?
851
01:05:53,970 --> 01:05:56,055
Well, if you say so, Pearl.
852
01:05:58,099 --> 01:06:00,141
Thank you for what you did today.
853
01:06:04,020 --> 01:06:06,063
I think we should talk.
854
01:06:06,147 --> 01:06:08,815
I know that this doesn't seem
like the best time, but...
855
01:06:08,899 --> 01:06:10,942
Julie, I found that letter.
856
01:06:14,361 --> 01:06:16,405
I found the letter to lowa.
857
01:06:17,447 --> 01:06:19,492
And er...
858
01:06:19,617 --> 01:06:22,037
If you've changed your mind, I understand.
859
01:06:23,662 --> 01:06:26,582
But...why didn't you tell me?
860
01:06:26,707 --> 01:06:29,584
Or ask me or something, you know?
861
01:06:34,087 --> 01:06:36,130
It's OK.
862
01:06:36,214 --> 01:06:39,883
It's OK, because I can go out there with you
and I'll...
863
01:06:40,008 --> 01:06:42,343
I'll apply to school there next semester.
864
01:06:44,055 --> 01:06:47,266
This isn't about where I go to school,
it's about us.
865
01:06:50,268 --> 01:06:51,185
Oh.
866
01:06:52,561 --> 01:06:53,562
OK.
867
01:06:57,148 --> 01:06:59,192
Well, you know what I think.
868
01:06:59,317 --> 01:07:00,442
So...
869
01:07:01,944 --> 01:07:06,405
If you have something to say, you should say it.
Because I don't have anything.
870
01:07:09,410 --> 01:07:13,037
Maybe we shouldn't plan
like we're gonna move off together.
871
01:07:16,665 --> 01:07:20,793
Does that mean what?
Does that mean we're...not going to or...?
872
01:07:22,003 --> 01:07:24,045
I love you, Allen, but...
873
01:07:26,840 --> 01:07:29,633
- But...
- But we've been together for a really long time,
874
01:07:29,717 --> 01:07:31,468
really close,
875
01:07:31,552 --> 01:07:34,347
Iike we're married since you moved in.
876
01:07:34,431 --> 01:07:36,224
- And everything's so set...
877
01:07:37,768 --> 01:07:39,810
Sorry to interrupt, but er...
878
01:07:39,894 --> 01:07:41,770
I wanted us all to talk about tomorrow.
879
01:07:42,937 --> 01:07:44,564
OK, we'll be right there.
880
01:07:53,570 --> 01:07:57,325
I don't know, it just doesn't really feel right
to me any more, and...
881
01:07:59,619 --> 01:08:01,536
Maybe it was just...
882
01:08:01,578 --> 01:08:03,539
too much too soon, you know?
883
01:08:03,663 --> 01:08:05,416
Or that we both changed.
884
01:08:05,541 --> 01:08:07,542
No, I haven't changed.
885
01:08:07,667 --> 01:08:09,168
I haven't changed.
886
01:08:09,251 --> 01:08:12,587
Then I've changed.
And what I want has changed.
887
01:08:12,754 --> 01:08:14,965
I don't want you to go out with me to lowa.
888
01:08:18,092 --> 01:08:20,135
I'm really sorry.
889
01:08:21,179 --> 01:08:22,973
No, wait, Julie!
890
01:08:23,098 --> 01:08:24,140
- Hey, Julie.
891
01:08:25,265 --> 01:08:26,892
Julie.
892
01:08:48,744 --> 01:08:50,579
OK, here's the definition.
893
01:08:52,372 --> 01:08:55,333
Love is when you can't get somebody
out of your mind,
894
01:08:55,458 --> 01:08:59,877
when they're your first thought in the morning
and your Iast thought at night.
895
01:09:00,837 --> 01:09:03,798
Maybe it's not in your heart,
but it is in your head.
896
01:09:06,008 --> 01:09:07,342
OK.
897
01:09:09,177 --> 01:09:11,932
So, do you think about Becky?
898
01:09:15,642 --> 01:09:17,685
All the time.
899
01:09:18,811 --> 01:09:21,731
You don't have anything to worry about,
I promise.
900
01:09:23,440 --> 01:09:25,817
If you have to wake me up
in the middle of the night
901
01:09:25,984 --> 01:09:29,236
to tell me that I don't have
anything to worry about,
902
01:09:29,320 --> 01:09:32,905
it kinda makes it seem like
I do have something to worry about.
903
01:09:35,201 --> 01:09:37,869
I just wanted to see a familiar face.
904
01:09:38,787 --> 01:09:40,830
I just wanted someone to talk to.
905
01:09:43,123 --> 01:09:45,167
Talk to at two o'clock in the morning?
906
01:09:47,585 --> 01:09:50,629
Look, I'm really sorry, OK,
I didn't show up today, but...
907
01:09:50,712 --> 01:09:53,465
it just sort of came up, you know, I didn't...
908
01:09:54,675 --> 01:09:56,926
Look, you're my guardian angel, right?
909
01:09:57,010 --> 01:09:59,053
I can count on you.
910
01:10:01,723 --> 01:10:04,184
- Do you love this guy?
- No.
911
01:10:09,938 --> 01:10:12,607
You don't have to be afraid to tell me the truth.
912
01:10:16,401 --> 01:10:18,444
I don't know.
913
01:10:19,487 --> 01:10:21,530
You don't know?
914
01:10:22,657 --> 01:10:24,701
No. I...
915
01:10:26,578 --> 01:10:28,620
Look, I'm sorry, OK? I just...
916
01:10:28,704 --> 01:10:30,747
I'm confused and I don't...
917
01:10:31,832 --> 01:10:33,875
I don't really mean...
918
01:10:35,085 --> 01:10:38,586
Maybe we shouldn't talk.
We should talk tomorrow, you know?
919
01:10:39,755 --> 01:10:43,258
It's just I really wanted to see you
because you're so good to me.
920
01:10:45,510 --> 01:10:47,552
But that's not enough.
921
01:10:47,636 --> 01:10:49,806
No, it's not like that.
922
01:10:51,682 --> 01:10:53,100
Please.
923
01:10:53,934 --> 01:10:55,978
I need you, OK?
924
01:10:57,145 --> 01:10:59,188
I need you really badly.
925
01:11:01,189 --> 01:11:04,818
You don't have anything
to worry about, OK? Just...trust me.
926
01:11:23,919 --> 01:11:26,128
I'm sorry, honey.
927
01:11:26,211 --> 01:11:28,255
Is everything OK?
928
01:11:48,564 --> 01:11:49,856
Shit!
929
01:11:51,024 --> 01:11:52,442
Shit...
930
01:11:57,362 --> 01:11:59,406
Hello?
931
01:11:59,488 --> 01:12:01,533
I didn't hear the phone ring.
932
01:12:03,160 --> 01:12:05,203
Oh, yeah, erm...
933
01:12:06,372 --> 01:12:08,414
No, he's in the shower. Can l...?
934
01:12:09,957 --> 01:12:11,167
Hello?
935
01:12:11,772 --> 01:12:13,293
- Hello?
936
01:12:17,046 --> 01:12:19,465
Calm down.
If you calm down, I can explain it.
937
01:12:19,549 --> 01:12:21,591
But I can't explain it if...
938
01:12:22,800 --> 01:12:23,968
Mira...
939
01:12:24,094 --> 01:12:25,761
No, I'm not gonna lie to you.
940
01:12:25,845 --> 01:12:27,764
I'm not gonna Iie to you, I wanna taIk.
941
01:12:27,848 --> 01:12:31,142
But I wanna taIk Iike, you know,
two normaI, rationaI...
942
01:12:34,437 --> 01:12:37,272
You know, you've been gone
for three fucking months, OK?
943
01:12:37,398 --> 01:12:38,398
Mira...
944
01:12:39,900 --> 01:12:41,734
If you'd just let me fucking explain.
945
01:12:42,193 --> 01:12:45,319
- Did you fuck her?
- Come on, Leland, come on.
946
01:12:45,444 --> 01:12:49,698
- I just wanna know if you fucked her.
- That's not relevant to what we're doing here.
947
01:12:49,782 --> 01:12:52,495
- Well, what are we doing here?
- We're talking.
948
01:12:52,620 --> 01:12:54,121
Mostly, I'm talking.
949
01:12:54,204 --> 01:12:56,247
I'm trying to help you.
950
01:12:57,998 --> 01:13:00,000
Maybe I'm trying to help you.
951
01:13:01,668 --> 01:13:04,462
I'm not the one who did something wrong
to get here.
952
01:13:06,129 --> 01:13:09,799
Just because what I did is wrong
doesn't make what you're doing right.
953
01:13:09,966 --> 01:13:12,802
No, I never said right.
I never made that distinction.
954
01:13:12,886 --> 01:13:13,969
Right.
955
01:13:14,135 --> 01:13:16,473
You only said you were human.
956
01:13:18,182 --> 01:13:21,393
- That explains it.
- OK, I'm a bastard. Does that do it?
957
01:13:21,477 --> 01:13:24,646
- I did it cos I'm a bastard, OK?
- And you wanted to.
958
01:13:26,314 --> 01:13:28,857
I mean, you wanted to fuck that other girl.
959
01:13:31,067 --> 01:13:33,111
Yeah, I wanted to.
960
01:13:36,363 --> 01:13:38,365
I wanted to.
961
01:13:39,532 --> 01:13:42,245
I don't see what's wrong with me asking you that.
962
01:13:43,495 --> 01:13:45,498
Just talking, right?
963
01:13:57,423 --> 01:13:59,467
We went to my place.
964
01:14:01,009 --> 01:14:02,344
And er...
965
01:14:02,427 --> 01:14:05,223
There was a message on the machine
from Miranda.
966
01:14:06,390 --> 01:14:08,518
There was just this earthquake in LA.
967
01:14:08,601 --> 01:14:11,644
And she woke up scared, she was terrified.
968
01:14:12,854 --> 01:14:15,689
And instead of calling her back,
969
01:14:15,773 --> 01:14:18,025
instead of calling my girlfriend back,
970
01:14:19,316 --> 01:14:21,277
I fucked some other chick.
971
01:14:22,361 --> 01:14:24,320
I knew it was wrong but...
972
01:14:25,447 --> 01:14:27,490
..I did it anyway.
973
01:14:34,413 --> 01:14:37,709
you know what the funny thing
about earthquakes is?
974
01:14:37,792 --> 01:14:43,087
After an earthquake, you see people pulling
other people out of broken-down buildings,
975
01:14:43,171 --> 01:14:44,588
peopIe hugging and junk,
976
01:14:44,713 --> 01:14:48,842
because they saw a IittIe girl's shoe in the road
and no IittIe girl around.
977
01:14:49,842 --> 01:14:52,386
Then, a couple of days later,
they forget all about it.
978
01:14:54,848 --> 01:14:57,684
It still shows you
that there's goodness in people.
979
01:14:57,809 --> 01:14:59,894
Well, during earthquakes, at least.
980
01:15:00,019 --> 01:15:02,145
People make mistakes.
981
01:15:04,565 --> 01:15:06,608
People are fallible.
982
01:15:06,691 --> 01:15:08,734
We are fallible, Leland.
983
01:15:08,818 --> 01:15:10,653
Even with the best intentions,
984
01:15:10,736 --> 01:15:14,322
most people don't have the inner strength
it takes to do good all the time.
985
01:15:15,406 --> 01:15:16,657
I guess.
986
01:15:18,242 --> 01:15:20,245
Look, what happened with Becky?
987
01:15:21,413 --> 01:15:24,499
I don't blame Becky.
I know you think that's why, but it isn't.
988
01:15:24,583 --> 01:15:26,083
It's not about why.
989
01:15:26,166 --> 01:15:30,377
Look, I just hurt somebody.
I feel terrible, I fucked up.
990
01:15:30,502 --> 01:15:34,006
I'd feel better knowing that I'm sitting
with somebody who fucks up, too.
991
01:15:36,633 --> 01:15:39,927
Well, you know what happened.
She broke up with me for that other guy.
992
01:15:40,011 --> 01:15:41,595
I don't wanna hurt you, OK?
993
01:15:45,142 --> 01:15:46,392
So, don't.
994
01:15:46,476 --> 01:15:49,728
Sometimes, things don't work out.
It's nobody's fauIt.
995
01:15:49,853 --> 01:15:51,647
That's bullshit.
996
01:15:52,690 --> 01:15:54,524
That's bullshit!
997
01:15:54,607 --> 01:15:56,567
It's her fault. She lied to you.
998
01:15:56,650 --> 01:15:59,361
- I don't see it that way.
- But, at some point, you did.
999
01:15:59,444 --> 01:16:01,195
I'm sorry, I get...
1000
01:16:01,279 --> 01:16:03,321
confused, you know?
1001
01:16:03,405 --> 01:16:05,282
I'm not like you.
1002
01:16:05,366 --> 01:16:09,162
You say it's hurting you, but it doesn't seem
Iike it matters one way or another.
1003
01:16:09,287 --> 01:16:10,288
It matters.
1004
01:16:10,372 --> 01:16:12,165
At some point, you got angry.
1005
01:16:12,290 --> 01:16:13,832
Prove it to me. Show it to me.
1006
01:16:13,915 --> 01:16:16,000
How do I show it?
1007
01:16:16,084 --> 01:16:19,754
You said things and you did things
that it didn't make any sense to say and do.
1008
01:16:19,837 --> 01:16:22,213
It didn't change anything,
but you did them anyway.
1009
01:16:22,380 --> 01:16:25,634
YeII atyou? shouId I scream atyou?
1010
01:16:25,717 --> 01:16:27,342
Hit you?
1011
01:16:27,468 --> 01:16:30,970
Is that how I show you it matters?
If I hit you, it matters?
1012
01:16:37,310 --> 01:16:39,354
I love you.
1013
01:16:46,359 --> 01:16:48,403
What else can I say?
1014
01:16:50,863 --> 01:16:53,031
Nothing I say is gonna change anything.
1015
01:16:54,324 --> 01:16:56,366
Cos you love somebody else.
1016
01:17:00,497 --> 01:17:03,459
I didn't like being the kind of person that did that.
1017
01:17:03,542 --> 01:17:05,584
What kind of person?
1018
01:17:05,668 --> 01:17:07,711
Like everybody else?
1019
01:17:11,423 --> 01:17:13,216
I didn't like the way it felt.
1020
01:17:13,341 --> 01:17:16,801
But you liked how it felt
when you were in love with her, right?
1021
01:17:19,553 --> 01:17:21,600
It's all part of the trade-off, man.
1022
01:17:22,600 --> 01:17:27,771
Love's only such a great thing because you
know what it feels like to get your heart broken,
1023
01:17:28,729 --> 01:17:31,023
what it feels like to be alone.
1024
01:17:35,401 --> 01:17:37,445
There was...
1025
01:17:38,403 --> 01:17:42,031
..something I said before,
something that was kind of a lie.
1026
01:17:42,115 --> 01:17:44,158
About what?
1027
01:17:45,870 --> 01:17:48,830
It's about how it doesn't make me
feel much of anything.
1028
01:17:52,833 --> 01:17:55,794
Mostly, I keep it out, but...
1029
01:17:57,211 --> 01:17:59,255
When you can't?
1030
01:18:00,464 --> 01:18:02,049
I don't know.
1031
01:18:04,426 --> 01:18:06,469
It covers my eyes.
1032
01:18:07,845 --> 01:18:09,888
It's just all I can see.
1033
01:18:12,309 --> 01:18:14,812
Say, there's some kids playing baseball.
1034
01:18:16,353 --> 01:18:20,815
All I see is the one kid they won't let play
because he tells corny jokes.
1035
01:18:22,942 --> 01:18:24,985
No-one thinks they're funny.
1036
01:18:25,069 --> 01:18:27,112
Or I see a boy and a girl in love,
1037
01:18:27,196 --> 01:18:29,030
and kissing, you know...
1038
01:18:29,114 --> 01:18:32,741
I just see that they're gonna be
one of those sad, old couples one day,
1039
01:18:32,824 --> 01:18:36,746
who just cheat on each other
and can't even Iook each other in the eye.
1040
01:18:40,832 --> 01:18:43,126
And I feeI it. I feeI aII of their sadness.
1041
01:18:46,587 --> 01:18:51,675
I feel it probably even worse than that sad
old couple or that corny kid will ever feel it.
1042
01:18:53,342 --> 01:18:55,386
Do you feeI Iike that now?
1043
01:18:58,304 --> 01:19:00,350
Well, mostly, I keep it out.
1044
01:19:01,225 --> 01:19:04,186
Did you feel like that
after you fought with Becky?
1045
01:19:07,314 --> 01:19:09,232
I don't know, maybe.
1046
01:19:09,357 --> 01:19:12,150
After you got back from New York?
1047
01:19:16,070 --> 01:19:18,114
It doesn't matter.
1048
01:19:19,740 --> 01:19:23,159
Cos telling you about it
and getting you all sad and junk...
1049
01:19:25,664 --> 01:19:27,581
..well, it never changes anything.
1050
01:19:27,706 --> 01:19:30,626
Cos nothing can make
what happened unhappen.
1051
01:19:41,508 --> 01:19:43,552
Excuse me, Mr Pollard, sir?
1052
01:19:43,636 --> 01:19:45,678
Oh, please, this isn't the time.
1053
01:19:45,762 --> 01:19:48,223
We were hoping that you might just...
1054
01:19:48,306 --> 01:19:50,976
I'm asking you as a favour, pIease...
1055
01:19:54,229 --> 01:19:57,857
- Sir, I respect your situation.
- Well, thank you for that.
1056
01:19:57,940 --> 01:20:01,318
- But we were hoping that you might...
- Hoping I might what?
1057
01:20:02,277 --> 01:20:04,361
Hoping I might what? We're in grief here.
1058
01:20:04,486 --> 01:20:06,489
- How is that a story?
- Harry...
1059
01:20:06,571 --> 01:20:08,616
How is my daughter crying a story?
1060
01:20:08,699 --> 01:20:11,409
We didn't do anything wrong, aII right?
1061
01:20:11,534 --> 01:20:14,080
We just... We Iost a chiId.
1062
01:20:14,162 --> 01:20:17,958
And we wanna be left alone.
How difficult is that to understand?
1063
01:20:18,041 --> 01:20:19,708
I apologise.
1064
01:20:19,792 --> 01:20:23,378
If you want a fucking story,
you go talk to that kid's parents.
1065
01:20:23,461 --> 01:20:26,256
Harass them!
Ask them how they raised a monster!
1066
01:20:26,339 --> 01:20:28,716
They're the ones who did something wrong,
not us.
1067
01:20:30,175 --> 01:20:32,219
I'm sorry..
1068
01:20:42,937 --> 01:20:44,938
I want it to be over.
1069
01:20:48,733 --> 01:20:50,067
I know.
1070
01:20:51,402 --> 01:20:53,445
But it's never gonna be over!
1071
01:20:55,656 --> 01:20:57,698
It's never gonna be over.
1072
01:21:04,956 --> 01:21:07,916
You ever think
the whole thing doesn't make sense?
1073
01:21:09,085 --> 01:21:11,670
I mean, they take all this stuff away from you.
1074
01:21:11,753 --> 01:21:14,172
Freedom, girls and sunshine.
1075
01:21:14,255 --> 01:21:17,508
Because it's supposed to make it
so when you get back on the outs,
1076
01:21:17,674 --> 01:21:19,717
you never wanna screw up again.
1077
01:21:21,135 --> 01:21:25,180
All it really does is get you to thinking
that you're so small, you know.
1078
01:21:25,263 --> 01:21:28,518
Like you're this small thing
that doesn't matter for anything.
1079
01:21:28,602 --> 01:21:30,644
By the time you do get out,
1080
01:21:30,727 --> 01:21:33,980
you don't even feel
like a human person any more.
1081
01:21:37,692 --> 01:21:40,944
Damn, devil boy,
they can't even make a lay-up out there.
1082
01:21:51,285 --> 01:21:54,373
It's important to me
that she knows that I didn't know.
1083
01:21:57,293 --> 01:21:59,586
Promise me you'll tell her I didn't know.
1084
01:22:00,795 --> 01:22:02,838
I promise.
1085
01:22:06,758 --> 01:22:09,343
When you get a moment,
Elden wants to see you.
1086
01:22:11,636 --> 01:22:12,637
Look...
1087
01:22:16,475 --> 01:22:18,518
..I know I'm the bastard here, OK?
1088
01:22:19,603 --> 01:22:22,772
That's as close to an apology
as I'm gonna get, isn't it?
1089
01:22:54,172 --> 01:22:55,633
Excuse me.
1090
01:23:04,180 --> 01:23:06,852
Hey, that 2002 finally give up the ghost on you?
1091
01:23:09,937 --> 01:23:11,981
Empty it out.
1092
01:23:12,064 --> 01:23:14,108
Empty out the cash register.
1093
01:23:18,027 --> 01:23:21,322
- Empty it the fuck out, come on!
- Right, OK. Don't, OK?
1094
01:23:21,405 --> 01:23:23,615
It takes a minute, OK?
1095
01:23:23,698 --> 01:23:25,742
It's computer stuff, not me.
1096
01:23:25,867 --> 01:23:28,368
- Hold on.
- Hey, hey!
1097
01:23:28,452 --> 01:23:30,497
Don't move, OK?
1098
01:23:30,581 --> 01:23:33,791
- Cool, man, cool. I ain't moving.
- OK, just don't move.
1099
01:23:41,173 --> 01:23:43,257
- I don't have a bag.
- Hand it to me.
1100
01:23:43,382 --> 01:23:45,425
Give it to me, come on!
1101
01:23:46,342 --> 01:23:47,760
Thank you.
1102
01:23:51,451 --> 01:23:52,931
- What the fuck was that?
1103
01:23:53,974 --> 01:23:57,270
This is bullshit, Elden.
This is red-tape bullshit and you know it.
1104
01:23:57,354 --> 01:24:00,522
No, Madison, this is about you
running your own programme.
1105
01:24:00,688 --> 01:24:02,982
You asked me about this kid, I told you no.
1106
01:24:03,066 --> 01:24:07,361
Then you, in effect, say, "Fuck you, I do
whatever I want. Elden Gilmore be damned."
1107
01:24:07,445 --> 01:24:11,614
- Look, this is about a kid who's so screwed up...
- No, this is about a book.
1108
01:24:11,739 --> 01:24:13,783
And you wanna talk about red-tape bullshit?
1109
01:24:13,908 --> 01:24:16,159
Let's talk about how fast I could have you fired
1110
01:24:16,243 --> 01:24:19,163
for turning your classroom over
to non-certified personnel
1111
01:24:19,247 --> 01:24:22,625
while you went off
to play your 20/20 bit with this kid.
1112
01:24:22,709 --> 01:24:25,043
- Man, I am pulling you from SH.
- Wait a minute...
1113
01:24:25,127 --> 01:24:27,462
After lunch, report to A Wing.
1114
01:24:27,546 --> 01:24:29,672
You're taking over Bellsey's class.
1115
01:24:35,302 --> 01:24:38,553
Hey, Pearl, I was wondering
if you could do us a favour.
1116
01:24:38,636 --> 01:24:42,099
I'm not really in a position
where I can be doing any favours right now.
1117
01:24:42,224 --> 01:24:47,980
Cos I was just wondering if we could get some
time on the field to play basketball or something.
1118
01:24:48,063 --> 01:24:50,107
They're pulling me from here.
1119
01:24:50,190 --> 01:24:52,399
They're sending me to another room.
1120
01:24:53,608 --> 01:24:55,277
But you'll be back tomorrow.
1121
01:24:55,361 --> 01:24:56,528
No.
1122
01:24:59,489 --> 01:25:00,490
Oh.
1123
01:25:03,616 --> 01:25:05,077
I'm gonna miss our talks.
1124
01:25:06,202 --> 01:25:11,165
You know, I'm gonna try and get back in here
if I can. I don't know if it'll happen or not.
1125
01:25:11,249 --> 01:25:15,212
- It's not my decision. It's not like...
Let's go. Clean it up. Break's over.
1126
01:25:15,295 --> 01:25:17,337
I'm not baiIing on you or anything.
1127
01:25:21,007 --> 01:25:24,176
I didn't get to tell you everything
I wanted to tell you.
1128
01:25:31,140 --> 01:25:33,144
I talk about New York at the end.
1129
01:25:33,269 --> 01:25:35,312
You've finished writing?
1130
01:25:36,813 --> 01:25:38,231
I don't know.
1131
01:25:41,025 --> 01:25:42,568
I want you to read it.
1132
01:25:44,568 --> 01:25:46,987
Maybe there's a why in there somewhere.
1133
01:25:48,114 --> 01:25:50,156
Maybe it'll make sense to you.
1134
01:25:56,412 --> 01:25:59,999
Whether or not it makes sense to me,
it doesn't matter.
1135
01:26:00,083 --> 01:26:03,919
Whatever happened, whatever you were
thinking, that's not the important thing.
1136
01:26:04,003 --> 01:26:07,130
The most important thing right now
is what happens to you, Leland.
1137
01:26:07,214 --> 01:26:09,757
Because you do control that, to some extent.
1138
01:26:09,882 --> 01:26:11,925
Listen to Charlie.
1139
01:26:12,967 --> 01:26:17,180
Listen to your lawyer. Do whatever he tells you
to do. He does know what's best for you.
1140
01:26:18,681 --> 01:26:20,724
What you did was wrong.
1141
01:26:20,808 --> 01:26:22,393
And I know you know that.
1142
01:26:22,477 --> 01:26:26,897
I mean, you might not show it in the right way,
but I know you recognise it.
1143
01:26:28,565 --> 01:26:30,609
You can't make it unhappen, but...
1144
01:26:31,693 --> 01:26:33,736
..nobody ever can.
1145
01:26:34,654 --> 01:26:39,533
Just because what you did was wrong
doesn't mean that giving up on your life is right.
1146
01:26:40,533 --> 01:26:42,576
Turn around!
1147
01:26:42,659 --> 01:26:44,704
- Turn around!
- Stop right there!
1148
01:26:44,787 --> 01:26:47,290
Go down to the Ground! SIowIy!
1149
01:26:55,754 --> 01:26:58,340
- What's going on?
- What is this? What is happening?
1150
01:26:58,424 --> 01:27:01,426
- We're placing your son under arrest.
- He's not my son.
1151
01:27:01,509 --> 01:27:02,927
Allen!
1152
01:27:07,515 --> 01:27:08,849
Allen...
1153
01:27:12,187 --> 01:27:14,271
- Allen...
- Allen, what is this?
1154
01:27:14,354 --> 01:27:16,773
I'm sorry, Mrs Pollard.
1155
01:27:16,857 --> 01:27:19,525
I just wanted to get out of town.
I made a mistake.
1156
01:27:19,609 --> 01:27:22,320
Don't say anything. Don't say another word.
1157
01:27:22,403 --> 01:27:24,446
We'II Get you a Iawyer, sweetheart.
1158
01:27:30,825 --> 01:27:32,869
You ratted me out.
1159
01:27:33,869 --> 01:27:36,457
You told my boss
I was writing a book about Leland.
1160
01:27:36,541 --> 01:27:39,292
I said you were attempting
to write a book about Leland.
1161
01:27:39,418 --> 01:27:41,878
Did you think
I was gonna allow you to exploit my son?
1162
01:27:41,962 --> 01:27:44,296
No, I guess not. That's your job, isn't it?
1163
01:27:44,380 --> 01:27:46,423
Excuse me?
1164
01:27:46,548 --> 01:27:50,135
The only reason you're here
is because you smell a book.
1165
01:27:50,218 --> 01:27:54,972
Look, I don't need to prey on a family tragedy
for my material, you vulturous little hack.
1166
01:27:55,055 --> 01:27:58,557
I could write 1 2 novels
on the light and shadow in this bar.
1167
01:27:58,640 --> 01:28:02,437
That's what you're compiling your notes about?
The light and shadows in the bar?
1168
01:28:03,813 --> 01:28:05,440
I was trying to heIp him.
1169
01:28:05,524 --> 01:28:08,192
I'm the one here
who actually gives a fuck about your son.
1170
01:28:08,276 --> 01:28:11,028
You've got no right to accuse me
of not caring for my son.
1171
01:28:11,152 --> 01:28:15,364
If you cared about your son, you'd have
attempted to see him over the past ten years,
1172
01:28:15,447 --> 01:28:18,242
instead of paying to fly him
everywhere that you aren't.
1173
01:28:18,283 --> 01:28:21,493
My relationship with Leland
is none of your concern.
1174
01:28:21,577 --> 01:28:23,870
Apparently, it's none of your concern, either.
1175
01:28:25,123 --> 01:28:29,585
Look, I'm aware that I have made mistakes
in my life, Mr Madison.
1176
01:28:29,668 --> 01:28:31,712
I am fuIIy aware of that fact.
1177
01:28:33,840 --> 01:28:36,174
But I sure the fuck know how to write my books.
1178
01:28:40,969 --> 01:28:42,637
You're pathetic.
1179
01:28:42,763 --> 01:28:46,890
- That's why you'll never be a writer.
- No, that's why I'm not a bastard.
1180
01:29:17,584 --> 01:29:19,586
Hey, can I come in?
1181
01:29:32,805 --> 01:29:34,848
I just wanted to see if you were OK.
1182
01:29:38,728 --> 01:29:40,771
But I guess you're mad at me.
1183
01:29:42,814 --> 01:29:44,859
But I didn't do anything wrong.
1184
01:29:46,818 --> 01:29:48,027
I didn't...
1185
01:29:49,903 --> 01:29:53,281
I didn't do anything wrong,
except make a lot of mistakes.
1186
01:29:53,365 --> 01:29:54,657
And...
1187
01:29:57,159 --> 01:29:58,744
I know that.
1188
01:30:00,745 --> 01:30:02,790
And I'm sorry.
1189
01:30:06,502 --> 01:30:08,878
But I'm done.
1190
01:30:11,255 --> 01:30:13,215
I'm done with all the mistakes.
1191
01:30:17,344 --> 01:30:19,303
I'm going back to rehab.
1192
01:30:20,304 --> 01:30:21,305
And...
1193
01:30:22,556 --> 01:30:25,641
I'm gonna get clean this time,
because I wanna be clean.
1194
01:30:31,273 --> 01:30:33,190
And I swear...
1195
01:30:34,275 --> 01:30:36,861
I swear I didn't know that Leland was gonna...
1196
01:30:38,153 --> 01:30:40,197
..do anything.
1197
01:30:43,157 --> 01:30:45,201
Just please tell me you don't...
1198
01:30:45,284 --> 01:30:47,327
think that I knew because...
1199
01:30:50,163 --> 01:30:53,125
..if you felt that, I would... I'd wanna die.
1200
01:30:53,209 --> 01:30:55,586
I'd wanna die if you could even think that.
1201
01:30:57,837 --> 01:31:00,047
You know how much I loved Ryan.
1202
01:31:03,300 --> 01:31:05,343
You know how much I loved Ryan.
1203
01:31:37,328 --> 01:31:37,870
- Got it.
1204
01:31:38,996 --> 01:31:40,580
Thanks.
1205
01:31:44,127 --> 01:31:45,211
- Hey.
- Hi.
1206
01:31:46,588 --> 01:31:49,152
- One main canaI known as the Grand CanaI...
1207
01:31:49,547 --> 01:31:52,966
For centuries, there was no bridge
over the Grand CanaI...
1208
01:31:56,470 --> 01:31:58,387
How are you doing?
1209
01:31:58,471 --> 01:32:00,514
- How are you doing?
- All right.
1210
01:32:00,598 --> 01:32:03,058
So, did you escape the wrath?
1211
01:32:03,183 --> 01:32:05,226
Gilmore owes me a couple still.
1212
01:32:12,025 --> 01:32:14,986
You er...got any desire to burn those up?
1213
01:32:18,155 --> 01:32:20,490
Goddamn you, man!
1214
01:32:22,200 --> 01:32:23,993
- Hey, shoot, man!
- Shoot it, shoot it!
1215
01:32:33,294 --> 01:32:37,130
When a guy hits three in a row,
you might wanna start guarding him.
1216
01:32:49,556 --> 01:32:53,142
Miranda, don't... No, don't hang up, listen.
Please, please.
1217
01:32:53,226 --> 01:32:55,270
Look, I fucked up.
1218
01:32:55,354 --> 01:32:57,398
OK. I'm...
1219
01:32:57,482 --> 01:33:01,901
I'm sorry.
I'm not gonna try and explain what I did.
1220
01:33:01,985 --> 01:33:05,904
I know what I did was wrong and
I'm not gonna make excuses about it. I just...
1221
01:33:05,987 --> 01:33:09,073
I just want you to know
that I'm really, really sorry.
1222
01:33:09,156 --> 01:33:10,657
And...
1223
01:33:11,575 --> 01:33:13,618
I wanna make this up to you.
1224
01:33:14,619 --> 01:33:17,747
I do, I wanna make this up to you so badly,
I swear.
1225
01:33:19,625 --> 01:33:21,877
I'm gonna get on the plane and come out there.
1226
01:33:23,294 --> 01:33:25,589
Because I wanna make this right, you know.
1227
01:33:25,755 --> 01:33:27,840
I wanna make this right between us.
1228
01:33:27,923 --> 01:33:29,383
Cos l...
1229
01:33:29,466 --> 01:33:31,343
I love you.
1230
01:33:32,426 --> 01:33:34,470
I love you very much.
1231
01:33:46,147 --> 01:33:48,191
It's all for you.
1232
01:33:56,697 --> 01:33:57,949
Shit!
1233
01:34:21,010 --> 01:34:22,344
Hey, Allen.
1234
01:34:25,430 --> 01:34:28,183
I think there are two ways
you can see the world.
1235
01:34:29,891 --> 01:34:32,519
You either see the sadness
that's behind everything
1236
01:34:32,602 --> 01:34:34,438
or you choose to keep it aII out.
1237
01:34:35,523 --> 01:34:38,776
Your heart can't break.
if you don't Iet the world touch it.
1238
01:34:40,151 --> 01:34:42,820
I wasn't Iying when I said, "I don't bIame her."
1239
01:34:43,905 --> 01:34:45,739
What happened wasn't her fauIt.
1240
01:34:46,824 --> 01:34:49,408
It was a coupIe of days
after aII that stuff with Becky
1241
01:34:49,492 --> 01:34:51,911
that I got the pIane ticket
to New York from my dad.
1242
01:34:56,415 --> 01:34:58,459
I was excited to be back in the city,
1243
01:34:58,543 --> 01:35:00,336
around Mrs CaIderon, too.
1244
01:35:00,461 --> 01:35:03,296
I was kind of hoping
it wouId be Iike the Iast time.
1245
01:35:03,463 --> 01:35:06,465
Iike I couId step back
into being that same kid again,
1246
01:35:06,591 --> 01:35:10,218
but. as soon as I saw her.
I couId teII something was different.
1247
01:35:11,845 --> 01:35:13,471
She was divorced.
1248
01:35:14,598 --> 01:35:19,393
It turns out Mr CaIderon cheated on her
for aImost the whoIe time they were married.
1249
01:35:19,476 --> 01:35:22,354
Mrs CaIderon said
I shouId caII her "AngeIa " now.
1250
01:35:28,610 --> 01:35:31,779
That night, I toId her
aBout what happened with Becky.
1251
01:35:35,614 --> 01:35:39,243
I remember exactIy what she said,
right down to the "kiddo " part.
1252
01:35:39,326 --> 01:35:42,079
It happens at different times for different people,
1253
01:35:42,204 --> 01:35:44,246
but it happens to everybody.
1254
01:35:47,418 --> 01:35:50,837
The worst part about growing up...
heartbreak.
1255
01:35:52,964 --> 01:35:56,550
Realising that bad things
happen to people like you, too.
1256
01:35:57,635 --> 01:35:59,051
But...
1257
01:35:59,135 --> 01:36:00,761
it's a part of life.
1258
01:36:04,598 --> 01:36:06,641
It seems like a pretty big part.
1259
01:36:11,897 --> 01:36:16,442
That's why you have to believe
that life is more than the sum of its parts, kiddo.
1260
01:36:18,568 --> 01:36:21,655
I thought about what she said,
but it didn't make much sense
1261
01:36:21,780 --> 01:36:24,866
and it didn't seem to be working for her,
in the first pIace.
1262
01:36:25,950 --> 01:36:29,744
I kind of feIt my heart breaking for her,
but I knew that was no good.
1263
01:36:29,870 --> 01:36:33,331
I wanted to do something for her,
but there wasn't anything.
1264
01:36:35,585 --> 01:36:37,878
There wasn't one thing I couId reaIIy do.
1265
01:36:42,464 --> 01:36:44,508
? Open the box
1266
01:36:44,591 --> 01:36:46,634
? What is in there?
1267
01:36:46,717 --> 01:36:50,220
? There are no tears to be wasted
1268
01:36:51,512 --> 01:36:53,307
? How can I climb
1269
01:36:53,432 --> 01:36:55,474
? On a shoulder to cry?
1270
01:36:56,224 --> 01:36:58,060
? If only this night
1271
01:36:58,144 --> 01:37:03,941
? Could just take us away...
1272
01:37:04,025 --> 01:37:06,610
The eIectricity wasn't in her eyes, any more,
1273
01:37:06,693 --> 01:37:10,571
and I started to think
that maybe the reason it wasn't in her eyes
1274
01:37:10,738 --> 01:37:12,698
was because it wasn't there, at aII.
1275
01:37:14,198 --> 01:37:18,453
Her eyes were stiII refIecting what was there,
but now it was the sadness.
1276
01:37:19,619 --> 01:37:21,663
I started to see it everywhere.
1277
01:37:22,790 --> 01:37:24,792
Every face was different, but the same.
1278
01:37:25,919 --> 01:37:27,961
I saw the sadness in every singIe one.
1279
01:37:28,045 --> 01:37:31,798
I feIt my heart break, over and over,
and each time Iike the first time.
1280
01:37:32,882 --> 01:37:35,342
I even saw it in my mom's face.
1281
01:37:35,426 --> 01:37:39,012
I saw how much my dad had hurt her
and I saw how IoneIy she was
1282
01:37:39,179 --> 01:37:41,223
and how much she wanted me to be happy.
1283
01:37:42,597 --> 01:37:44,641
It's the same with every parent.
1284
01:37:44,724 --> 01:37:49,398
They want their kids to be happy, but they
shouId know it aIways turns out the same.
1285
01:37:49,481 --> 01:37:53,233
I don't know why, but I started to see it in Ryan
worse than anybody.
1286
01:37:55,652 --> 01:37:58,237
The first day after I got back,
he was waiting for Becky,
1287
01:37:58,320 --> 01:38:01,114
but she didn't show up, so I waIked him home.
1288
01:38:02,699 --> 01:38:04,660
The next day, I went to his cIass.
1289
01:38:04,784 --> 01:38:08,662
AII the words they were teaching him
were things to stay away from.
1290
01:38:09,747 --> 01:38:12,831
There weren't any words
Iike "strawberry." or "kiss".
1291
01:38:18,630 --> 01:38:22,091
You couId teII he reaIIy Iiked
this girI who worked there,
1292
01:38:22,175 --> 01:38:26,511
but she just smiIed at him, Iike you do at a baby
when they do something cute.
1293
01:38:29,680 --> 01:38:31,724
I started to think that he knew.
1294
01:38:31,807 --> 01:38:34,017
He knew that, no matter what he did,
1295
01:38:34,183 --> 01:38:36,769
he was never gonna be a kid
with a girl Iike that on his arm.
1296
01:38:39,356 --> 01:38:40,941
He knew everything.
1297
01:38:44,652 --> 01:38:47,613
He knew that nobody Iooked at him
Iike a normaI kid.
1298
01:38:47,697 --> 01:38:50,656
PeopIe either Iaughed at him
or feIt sorry for him.
1299
01:38:50,740 --> 01:38:53,742
He knew it aII,
but he couIdn't do anything about it.
1300
01:38:53,825 --> 01:38:55,452
He was trapped.
1301
01:38:57,621 --> 01:39:00,498
I couIdn't sIeep. I hadn't sIept since New York.
1302
01:39:00,664 --> 01:39:04,795
I was Iying there and I 'd think about
Mrs CaIderon and I 'd think about Ryan
1303
01:39:04,836 --> 01:39:06,880
and I feIt things tight in my chest.
1304
01:39:06,963 --> 01:39:08,756
I feIt Iike I was drowning.
1305
01:39:08,881 --> 01:39:12,550
There 's aII this sadness
and there 's nothing you can do about it
1306
01:39:12,634 --> 01:39:14,677
and aII I wanted was for it to go away.
1307
01:39:20,349 --> 01:39:23,350
When I say, "I don't remember that day",
I'm not Iying.
1308
01:39:24,602 --> 01:39:26,352
I wish I couId remember, but I don't.
1309
01:39:28,690 --> 01:39:30,858
At Ieast, not the stuff they want me to.
1310
01:39:36,988 --> 01:39:39,031
- Christ Jesus.
Oh. God.
1311
01:39:40,407 --> 01:39:41,700
It's over.
1312
01:39:44,077 --> 01:39:45,578
It's over now.
1313
01:39:54,003 --> 01:39:56,047
Maybe it makes sense now.
1314
01:39:57,131 --> 01:40:00,008
Maybe somewhere in aII of this,
there is a reason.
1315
01:40:01,801 --> 01:40:04,386
Maybe somewhere in aII of this, there is a why.
1316
01:40:07,848 --> 01:40:09,890
Maybe somewhere there 's that thing
1317
01:40:09,932 --> 01:40:13,602
that Iets you tie it aII up with a neat bow
and bury it in the back yard.
1318
01:40:15,895 --> 01:40:18,649
Bury it down so deep, it's Iike it never happened.
1319
01:40:23,111 --> 01:40:24,445
But nothing.
1320
01:40:26,281 --> 01:40:29,449
Not a why, not getting angry,
not saying you're sorry.,
1321
01:40:29,532 --> 01:40:32,367
not prayers and not tears.
1322
01:40:33,828 --> 01:40:36,831
Nothing can make something that happened
unhappen.
1323
01:40:40,458 --> 01:40:43,629
You can't make it unhappen,
but nobody ever can.
1324
01:40:46,048 --> 01:40:48,299
Just because what you did was wrong,
1325
01:40:48,383 --> 01:40:51,385
it doesn't mean that giving up on your life
is right.
1326
01:40:57,556 --> 01:40:59,684
You know I'm sorry, don't you, Pearl?
1327
01:40:59,808 --> 01:41:01,601
I do. I know you are.
1328
01:41:05,437 --> 01:41:07,275
It doesn't change anything,
1329
01:41:07,358 --> 01:41:08,984
but I'm sorry.
1330
01:41:22,869 --> 01:41:26,247
The worst part is knowing
that there is goodness in peopIe.
1331
01:41:27,374 --> 01:41:29,541
MostIy, it stays deep down and buried.
1332
01:41:32,379 --> 01:41:35,923
Maybe we don't have God
because we 're scared of the bad stuff.
1333
01:41:36,006 --> 01:41:38,550
Maybe we 're reaIIy scared of the good stuff.
1334
01:41:46,598 --> 01:41:48,432
Because, if there 's no God,
1335
01:41:48,557 --> 01:41:52,770
that means it's inside of us
and we couId be good aII the time, if we wanted.
1336
01:41:54,604 --> 01:41:57,525
So, when we do bad things,
it'd Be because we want to
1337
01:41:57,609 --> 01:41:59,652
or because we have to.
1338
01:42:02,195 --> 01:42:07,241
Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind
us what the good stuff is in the first pIace.
1339
01:42:11,661 --> 01:42:13,412
What are you doing, you goofball?
1340
01:42:14,539 --> 01:42:15,956
Just go around.
1341
01:42:25,174 --> 01:42:26,549
Uh...
1342
01:42:32,471 --> 01:42:33,930
Come here.
1343
01:42:35,014 --> 01:42:36,473
Come here.
1344
01:42:45,984 --> 01:42:47,652
Everything's OK.
1345
01:42:50,821 --> 01:42:52,822
Everything's gonna be OK.
1346
01:42:56,200 --> 01:42:57,618
I promise.